Life waster

side character

I was never anyone's favorite
And i happen to accept that
I'm no one's main character but mine
I've spent my life waiting for it to end
But in reality i was waiting for a miracle
To set me free
Something just as pretty as my favorite flowers
I've always wanted to sit in a sunflower field
Under a clear sky
Wearing a white dress and glittery lipgloss
Write poetry
The happy kind of poetry
The kind that screams "i made it" with each word of it
And I've been holding into that dream
That maybe one day I'll be able to say that i made it
And live for my main character moment
Because I've never been anyone's favorite
And I've never been loved enough
Loved a little
But never enough for me to hold into someone
To live for someone
So I just lived for a dream
An idea
Some hope I've left
And because I've never been anyone's anything
I never had someone to lean on
A shoulder to lay on
Someone who would hold me for a second
When I'm crumbling to pieces
I grew up crumbling by my own
Watch my crumbs get lost by the wind
Waiting for me to pick them up again
And each time i recollect me
I end up being the same yet so different
That I'm even a stranger to myself
Yet so familiar to other's
Because I've never been anyone's important person
That even if i disappear
No one will ever notice