Finding Her

Arguements

Jane watches me like a hawk after my secret was revealed.
I wake up screaming and crying.
"Janey....please...I- I can't breathe"
She quickly sits up and I throw myself onto her.
She helps me to breathe.
"Thank you"
I smile lightly.
"It's okay baby"
I get up and she helps me to eat breakfast.
Afterwards we go for a walk.
I sip on a coffee and so does Jane.
We go to the shop and I use my old prescription to get some adderall.
I hide them in my bag so that Jane doesn't see.
I quickly pick up some cigarettes and throw them into the bag.
"Get anything?"
Jane asks
"Nope."
We go home and I step outside.
I light the cigarette and I take a drag from it.
Jane comes outside
"What the fuck are you doing?!"
She screams at me.
"What does it look like?"
She swats the cigarette out of my hand and she steps on it.
"Fuck off Jane!"
I storm back inside and she slams the door shut.
"Maura Doretha Isles?! Get your ass back here!"
I run up the stairs.
She grabs my arm.
"Let me go bitch!"
She forces me into the bedroom.
"Sit the fuck down now!"
She plops me down onto the bed
I fight her off me.
She locks the door and she blocks the bathroom door by moving a desk in front of it.
"Why were you smoking start talking?"
"Unlock the door!"
"I'm not gonna do that until you tell me why?"
I cover my ears as she continues talking.
She grabs my arms and she holds them.
"I'm not gonna let you destroy your body baby!"
"Take your hands off me!"
I sob.
She lets go.
"Tell me why you smoke baby?"
"I-I do it because I want to feel something."
"How long have you been doing it?"
"Since I was younger but Allen and Amy forced me to start again and now I crave it."
"Oh honey...I am so sorry"
"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have called you a bitch"
"I understand baby"
We hug
"You need to stop smoking baby"
"I-I can't! I've been trying the gum but it hasn't worked!"
"Oh baby. Tell you what first thing tomorrow we'll get you on those patches."
"Alright"
I sigh.
She hugs me as I cry.
She unlocks the door as I start to smile.
She moves the dresser back to it's normal place.
I get into my pyjamas.
"I was thinking that maybe we could party tomorrow?"
Perfect excuse to drink and take my adderall
"Really baby?"
"Yeah like have a dance party at home?"
"Alright honey, I wouldn't mind. We can let our hair down"
"Yay"
I smile.
She kisses me and then I kiss her back.
I lie down and I fall asleep