Finding Her

Blue

I wake up next to Allen
My wrist has turned blue from the handcuffs just like how I feel so blue inside and out
I sob loud enough so that it wakes him
"Oh shit"
He quickly takes it off and he bandages it
"It's just really bruised honey."
I nod my head.
He takes me into the living room and he makes me eat
"Sir please take me for a walk?"
I cry
"What?"
"It's so dark in this room. I want to see the sun and I wanna go for a walk in the fresh air please sir? Take me to the park and I'll behave I promise!"
"You promise?"
"I promise sir! It- it could be like a romantic date and we could feed the ducks or get ice cream."
"That'd be lovely sweetie."
He helps me to get dressed
He puts me in a pair of jeans and a black sweater that covers the bruises.
He lets me out of the house and I look around.
He grabs my hand
"You stay by my side at all times, do you understand me?!"
"Y-yes daddy."
"Good baby now let's go"
We walk to a park and I smile looking at the birds
I crouch and I feed them some bread.
I wince as I stand back up fully.
My ribs hurt so bad so I clutch them.
We get an ice cream cone to share.
I wanted my own but he slapped me when I asked.
We finished the ice cream and we sat down on the grass.
"It's so picturesque here."
I comment as I sip on the red wine he brought
"You're right and your beauty makes it even better."
"Aw thank you."
I move my hair out of my face.
My mind keeps feeding me ideas of how to escape.
I try to push it down as I continue sipping.
I fiddle with my belt's buckle.
"You seem uncomfortable baby"
"Um no I'm- I'm fine."
"What's wrong?"
I look up at him
"I need the bathroom daddy"
"Hold it till we get home honey."
I wipe a tear.
I change my posture
"I really need to go daddy."
I whisper in his ear as I hold myself.
"I don't care honey."
"P-please I don't think I can hold it because it's a long walk home!"
He shakes his head.
"Nope you're going to at least try."
I whine
He forces me to drink more wine
"Ah ah Ah last sip baby"
I drink that last sip and I squirm.
"Daddy I'm really desperate- please can we go?!"
"Okay sure honey."
He takes ages to pack up the picnic and I cry.
I hold myself crossing my legs back and forth.
We begin to walk home
I put my hand onto my crotch as I squirm.
"I'm sorry daddy- I need to go!"
I whine
He slaps me.
"Don't you dare disobey me! You can't pee not yet!"
We continue walking and I feel a trickle
It creates a wet spot and I shake.
I whine as he inspects me
"Oh have you leaked honey?"
"Yes I'm so sorry daddy!"
I continue walking with him until the urge overcomes me.
He yanks me into an alleyway since I had began to let it go.
I don't even have time to pull my jeans down before I begin to pee lots
"No! Hold it princess!"
"I- I can't stop it!"
I whine.
I sob as I pee myself as he beats me up.
He takes me to a public restroom around the corner
"Go in and clean yourself up!"
He hands me a spare dress.
I rush in and I let the last bit go
I throw the jeans into the bin and I get changed.
I sob as I clutch my stomach.
I being to wash my hands when a woman appears from a cubicle
"I need your help!"
The woman stares at me.
"I've been kidnapped? My name is Maura Isles and I need you to call the police!"
"Ich spreche kein Englisch"
"Please?!"
I sob as I hold her in place.
"Aussteigen! Du Missgeburt"
She exits and I suddenly see Allen in the crack of the door.
He grabs me and he yanks me into a stall.
"You stupid bitch!"
He yells as he whacked me in the head
He locks the stall door and he yanks my panties down.
I screech as he enters my ass.
I vomit into the toilet and he just continues raping me
He eventually finishes and he takes me home
I wake up crying in Jane's arms
I explain why I'm crying
"Oh honey you were so brave."
"No- no I wasn't! I disobeyed him and then he hurt me!"
"It's not your fault honey"
I nod then we go about our normal day routine and we go to the beach.