Temptation

Do you love me?

Reader POV

I had my eyes closed, I feel like sleeping, my body definitely is but my mind isn't. I hear voices but I can't understand what they said, it's too silent. Is there a beeping sound? Am I dreaming? Is the alcohol doing it's work? Am I having a hangover? I have so many questions but I can't do anything. I can't move. And then...I just fell asleep again.

A few hours later the same thing happened. Someone was holding my hand and I heard a voice, a beautiful one singing for me. I feel relaxed listening to it and after some more time I finally managed to open my eyes, first I saw a white ceiling, then I looked down at me, seeing a white blanket over me and then look around the room, seeing Loreen sitting beside and looking at me like a sad little puppy. Now I realise where I am but before I could even say something she hugged me immediately. „God!...I am so happy you opened your eyes..." She said and cuddled closer to me, I feel like this is the tightest hug I ever got from someone. I hear her silently sniffing, signalling me that she was literally crying for me. I try to remember what happened and then I realise what dumb thing I did yesterday.

„What exactly happened? I remember being childish...but why am I here? This is a hospital right?" I ask with a soft voice and she finally let go of me, taking a deep breath. „(Y/N) you...you ran away...you were drunk and I was stupid enough to let you go...I should have immediately run after you...I am so sorry..." She told me and then I noticed a stinging pain in my leg, frowning as I look at her. „What exactly happened Loreen? I don't remember anymore." I ask again and she finally told me what happened.
„A car hit you but you had a lot of luck. There are no inner injuries and your head is fine too but you broke your leg." She explained and I felt shocked. What the hell? And I am still alive? I really must have an guardian angel by my side. I still am emotionally hurt tho, I can't forget how crazy this whole situation between me and Loreen makes me.

„Why are you here with me?" I ask as I turn my head to look at her and she gave me confused look. Why is she confused? This is a normal question. Why would she be here with me, she surely has some schedules and better things to do.

„(Y/N)...you're important to me. Of course I am here. I needed to look after you. You were sleeping a lot and I just got worried you wouldn't wake up that quickly." She explained but I just don't get it. „Are you just playing with me?" I asked her with a straight face, making her even more confused about my question but why? It's just how I feel.
„No! Stop saying that. I am not playing with you! How could I? I...I am sorry I can't explain things to you yet, I can't explain how I feel and what is happening behind the scenes of all of that but I would never play with your emotions please believe me."

Her answer didn't explain anything to me. What's so hard about it? She either loves someone or she doesn't.

I didn't have the time to discuss that with me right here since our little discussion got interrupted by the nurse entering the room.

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[flashback to what happened right after the accident]

Loreen watched you leave, her body too numb to follow you, she sat on her knees on the floor, looking lost as she thought about how to react and what to do but there wasn't a lot of time to process since the bathroom door opened again and Heidi went in „Woah! Why is she running away?" She said with a smile but her expression faded into a serious one as she saw Loreen kneeling on the ground, crouching down to her as she placed her hands on the other woman's thighs. „What happened sweetie? Tell me." She told her and Loreen looked at her with tears in her eyes before she tried words to explain. „I don't know...I think I caused a emotional chaos. I didn't mean to...but I don't know what to do. It's so complicated." She explained and Heidi just tried her best to lighten up the mood again. „Listen I do know about this situation between you both okay? Stop lying to yourself sweetie, when it's supposed to be then you can't lie to your heart anyway. Is it the fact that she is a girl? You get enough support from the lgbtq+ community. Is it the age gap? Look at me and my partner! It's okay, do what your heart wants love."

The kind words of the blonde woman did only help a little, making Loreen frown before she sighed a little. „You know I don't care about others opinions, they will always have a opinion no matter what you do. I just don't exactly know what I am feeling. Surely there is something but I don't know if it's really love. Besides...I have my heart promised to someone else. I can't start a thing with her when I am not closing the other chapter." She explained and Heidi just stood up, taking Loreen's hand and making her stand up. „Come up here! Listen to me. Your feelings are valid. If you fell for a woman then it is what it is. Breakup's are normal! Now stop standing there like a lost puppy and follow her! She went out the building. You should catch her." She said and Loreen finally nod her head, following you outside the building.

On her way she thought a lot about the whole evening and the situation, being lost in her mind before she then stopped, eyes widen once she saw a car in the middle of the street and the ambulance being there. ‚Please don't-...' She thought but once she got closer she saw the woman she actually loved on the ground being hurt and her own heart broke at this view as well.

She immediately asked the paramedic where they will bring you and that she knows you so they gave her the information and she decided to follow the ambulance to the said hospital, making sure to stay there and be by your side until she knows what exactly got damaged, hoping it wasn't something terrible, a lot of things going through her mind, a lot of horrific things.

„Miss you can get inside, she is sleeping right now." A nurse told her after a long time of waiting and she rushed inside the room, seeing you laying in bed, looking peacefully asleep.

She took a chair and placed it near the bed so she could sit beside you. „I promise I won't let you go now..." She said with a soft voice, caressing your cheek as she looked at you, her heart beating so fast. „I wish I could tell you how much I love you..." She whispered before leaning in, taking the opportunity to kiss your lips, a small but beautiful moment. You didn't notice but she was happy she could at least do it now, her own emotions going crazy at the moment and she couldn't hold back but cry silently. Waiting for the doctor to come and explain what the hell happened and what injuries you have...

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Readers POV

Once the nurse left, Loreen came inside again and I secretly hoped she wouldn't since I couldn't see her anymore at the moment. Her behaviour confused me so much. Why would you care so much for a simple hookup? Why can't she just tell me about her feelings!

„Did you forget something?" I asked and she felt uncomfortable at my question, noticing I am a little pissed but she didn't let me shoo her away as she sat down on my bed right beside me.

I hate what my body is doing now but I grab her by the collar of her shirt and pulled her close enough so she couldn't look away from me as I look straight into her eyes. „Do you love me?" I ask her straight away, she looked at me but she didn't answer yet, she just moved to place a kiss on my cheek, making me blush at her sudden action. Well it wasn't my lips but it was still startling me.

„You have no idea how much is going on with me..." Loreen said and I could hear her voice almost cracking as she said that.

She definitely feels something for me...

To be continued