Newt X Reader One-Shots

Hypocrite

⚠️ Mentions of suicide ⚠️

I stood there waiting for them to open. No, I'm not a Runner. I'm just a Builder, but today I have to be behind those walls before someone notices.

I had tried to stay here. Everyday I'd wake up and smile like nothing was wrong. I'd tune out Gally's complaining. I'd laugh at Minho's sarcasm and Chuck's pranks. Something I'd do every morning was wake Newt up with a kiss. That wouldn't be happening today though. Today he'd wake up next to a note. That note would be the last thing anyone would have of me.

Have you figured it out yet? Today I'm going to jump from those walls, and I'm going to die. I even got Minho to tell me who was running which section today. No on suspected a thing. Not when I requested pen and paper, not when I stopped going to Greenie night, and not when I got more curious about the Maze. It wasn't their fault of course. I always was curious about everything. I could change just like that and blame it on girl things. In reality, I didn't have a choice if I wanted to keep this hidden. I refused to let something stop me.

I sat by those walls. In five minutes I'd slip in without a word. How long until someone notices? I guess when Newt wakes up to that note.

I wanted to cry, but nothing came out. I was to far gone. I hope they understand I can't stay trapped here forever. They didn't expect me to, did they?

I heard those doors give their earsplitting sounds as they opened. My stomach did flip-flops. A part of me was screaming that I could just stay. That I had all of my friends here, and maybe I could tell them. I pushed those away.

Looking around the Maze I put one foot in as if it would trigger something. As always nothing changed. This place was the same as always. It had the same weather, the same sounds, and the same dread that came from being here.

I took a deep breath before going into the doors. As I did I heard the last voice I wanted to.

"Don't take another bloody step."
"Minho said I had something I could grab real quick. I'll be right back,"I deadpanned, not daring to turn around.
"Then look at me,"He demanded. I didn't.
"Y/N, I said look at me!"

I couldn't. He always knew when I was lying. I had to bolt before he could catch me. Despite his limp he had still been a Runner. He knew far more than I ever would.

Before he could react I sprinted around the corner. I couldn't let him catch me. I had planned this out for to long.

I turned another corner as my breathing got heavier only to see a dead end. Tugging on a vine I went to make my way up, but Newt had already caught up to me. He pulled me away as I struggled to get out of his grasp. It didn't matter where I went. I just couldn't stay here.

"Let me go Newt! Let me go!"I screamed.
"Stop it! I'll drag you back if I have to. Do you hear me?! You're not jumping off these stupid walls!"He yelled.
"Let me go! Let me go! Let me go!"I repeated. He only held me tighter.
"I'm not going to do that so just come back to the Glade!"
"Just stop! I'll find another way! I don't care how bad it hurts! I can't stay here!"I cried out.
"I'll keep you in the slammer for the rest of your life if I have to!"
"I'll find a way there too!"
"You're being selfish!"

I froze at his words. We both had. A heavy silence filled the air as I felt my heartbeat in my ears.

"I'm selfish? I'm the selfish one? But you're such a saint because your wake up everyday, right? Right?"
"Please, just stop. Just come back to the Glade. We can figure out how to handle this,"He begged.
"There's nothing to handle. Don't you get it? I'm done with everything here,"I cried. I was losing the energy to keep struggling.