𝙼𝚢 𝚅 ◦ 𝙹𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚗𝚊𝚕『𝚜𝚝𝚛𝚊𝚢 𝚔𝚒𝚍𝚜』

~2.6~

Chapter #5

wassup gays 

so today we will be going through my emotional journey because thought " i wasnt gay"

(A/N: Just to inform you guys im not trying to like make fun of anyone who is still questioning their sexuality. its ok i was also there at some point in time. a confused lonely idiot. this is just for entertainment purposes. if you want someone to talk to feel free to message me! but just know im horrible at advice but im a good listener! :)

so the person who helped me get through it all was my brother felix

me and him are really close

REALLY CLOSE

literally and figuratively

cus he needs someone to hug otherwise he gets nightmares

what?

you thought something didnt you my dirty minded imaginary audience

n e ways

he was born in australia when my parents had a bit too much fun on their "business trip"

it wasnt actually a business trip

they just wanted to go live a life pretending they didnt have a child for a bit

by a bit i mean like 10 years

yea they were horrible

i was left alone at my cousin's house

n e ways 

this is not the time to get into my kinda sad childhood

so  he helped me get over my trauma 

there was a child part in me that feared that they would come and hit me for being like they used to for hanging out with the aforementioned gay friends

i would cry in his arms acting like a child

he was there for me 

he cooked me brownies 

he reminded me that i was going to throw away mine and jisung's relationship over my asshole parents

he reminded me i love jisung too much to do that

and that fixed me

also i may or may not have revealed hyunjin's deep dark secret to seungmin

maybe maybe not

it was an accident okay

but well they are engaged now so i guess it was fine

and then one day i gathered up the courage to tell jisung how i felt

we hadnt hung out in a long time

he was soo worried about me

but my sad ass just ignored him

i first asked for forgiveness 

and it was not easy

he was mad 

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♥My future husband♥

hey sungie

oh so now you talk

and dont call me sungie

im sorry

iM sOrRy

thats not gonna fix it mister

i need a proper apology, explanation, 

a picture of you and cheese cake

im so sorry jisung for ignoring you. i promise to never ever do that again. i was just having trouble sorting out my feelings. my feelings for who exactly? you

i thought i wasnt gay and i had trauma with being gay. my parents were extremely homophobic. thankfully they now live in australia. but now im sure. i like you. its okay if you dont like me back.

i just had to get it off my chest. so if you want how about a date at that cafe we always go to and ill treat you to some cheescake.

minho um i actually have a boyfriend

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ooooooo cliffhanger

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