Save Me...SOLBY

•Part 8•

TW:Breakdown.

Colby's POV:

I saw Sam wake up so I looked at him. He looked so pure and so hurt how cold anything like this happy to someone like him...? "Colby?" He said weakly i looked at him then hugged him.
"What happened...?" He asked I sighed "You passed out so I brought you here" I told him. He started playing with his sleeves I kneeled down to him and held his hands.
"Hey...breathe relax your safe here okay? Whatever happened your safe with me okay?" I said looking him in the eyes. When we made eye contact I felt weird but ignored it.
Sam mattered right now. "Listen...I just wanna tell you that I'm here for you your always safe with me and I hope you know that..." I said. I could see his eyes start to water I sat next to him and pulled him into a hug I felt him flinch.
"Sorry I'm not very good with physical contact..." he told me messing with his hands, I took this as he thought he was gonna get into trouble and on edge. I held his hand and looked at him "Hey it's okay don't be sorry I just wanna know are you safe with Katrina? There must've been a reason why you were on the street in the pouring rain having a panic attack and passed out."
I didn't wanna interrogate him but I'm so worried about him I'm most likely overthinking most of this. What if it's true though? "Oh I'm sorry...I um...I'm really sorry" he kept apologising.
"Hey please stop apologising...there's nothing for you to apologise for..." I told him he just looked up at me. "W-what time is it...?" Sam asked as he started picking the skin off his fingers, "it's 7:30am" I told him "also stop doing that you'll hurt yourself" I told him smiling.
He stopped straight away and just placed them on his lap. We sat in silence for a little before my mom came into my room, "Sam? Dear are you okay? Colby seemed really worried about you" she said rushing over to Sam.
"I'm fine thank you..." Sam said quietly "Alright dear well stay here as long as you need okay?" My mom told him. He seemed to get way more tensed when she talked about going home I just really worry for his safety.
My mom walked out the room and Sam stood up "I think I'm gonna go home today..." he said messing with his sleeves. He's been doing that a lot and I hope he's not doing what I think he is...
"Alright do you want me to drop you off?" I asked him he seemed panicked "no I'll be fine thanks" he responded. I didn't want him to go I was scared that something was gonna happen. "Sam do you wanna stay again? I'll text Katrina and tell her" I asked he looked up at me and nodded.
"If I'm not taking up to much space..." he mumbled I shot a look at him. "No of course not I just don't think it's safe for you to go home tonight because there are a lot of killers and Kidnappings" I told him. He just nodded.

Sam's POV:

I didn't wanna go home so I'm glad Colby said I could stay. I felt like I was being a burden and taking up way to much space and that didn't settle in very well. I feel very safe with Colby but ever since I felt like I was taking up to much space I felt really unsettled.
Him and his mom was talking about something I was in my own little world overthinking. Colby tapped me and I jolted out of my trance, I felt really embarrassed "Sorry..." I said that was the only word that spilled.
I saw him and his mom share a look "Hey dear it's okay don't be sorry...is there anything you wanna talk about?" She asked me "No I'm fine" I said. Colby looked at me I felt his eyes on me. They both went back to talking but I knew Colby kept glancing at me every now and then.
The room started to get really hot and my head started spinning. I tried to ignore it so I wouldn't look weird in front of my best friend and his mom. "Sweetheart you look really pale and lightheaded are you feeling okay?" His mom asked me, I froze at the name she called me "Yeah I'm fine" I said smiling.
"Colby am I allowed upstairs...?" I asked him hesitantly "of course I'll be up later okay?" He told me smiling. I gave him a smile back and ran upstairs I went into the bathroom and locked the door. I just threw my head back onto the wall I didn't care if it hurt I don't have a blade or anything but I need to feel pain.
I started getting really panicky and didn't know what to do with myself. My hands were shaking,my head was spinning,my leg was bouncing and sweat was pouring down my face. "Sam..." Colby said sitting next to me I don't know how he got in if I locked the door.
He calmed me down and I just hugged him. "Sorry..." I Said I heard him sigh and he sounded annoyed with me so I stopped hugging him and just stood there. My heart was beating so loud I'm pretty sure he could hear it.
He just hugged me and buried my head into his chest. "Your okay...I promise I'm here" he reassured me. I was still sniffling but he calmed me down a little. I hated the attention though this was never meant to happen...
I pulled away from Colby and he just looked so upset. "I'm sorry I'm sorry...I-I just!" I tried to explain but couldn't, if there's another bit of trauma I've picked up it's that I can't explain things because I was always stopped.
Colby just looked at me with tears in his eyes. Fuck you messed up you fucking idiot!!! I said to myself pulling my hair completely forgetting Colby was there.
"I'm sorry" I said rushing out the door.

Colby's POV

I watched as Sam pulled his hair and rushed out the door beating himself up. I really wanted to just hold him and tell him everything was okay...
I don't know what's been going on with me these few days but I feel so werid towards Sam not in a bad way. Just like I wanna hold him,spend time with him and just tell him he's safe.
I've never felt like that not even towards a girl but Sam...my amazing best friend has got me into a knot. I walked downstairs and put my head on the table. "Dear what's wrong? Sam rushed out the door shaking?" She asked me this made me bang my fists off the table.
Her hands rubbed circles on my back while I cried into her arms. "I-I was hugging him t-then he pulled a-away and I-I got really upset t-then I watched him p-pull his hair until h-he made himself go r-red..." I explained through my tears.
My mom looked so worried "And um...I feel so werid around him not in a bad way but sometimes I just wanna hold him and just wanna be close to him..." I told her I knew I could tell her anything she would never judge me.
"Awww dear that's called love...you might have a crush on him but even if you do I'll always love you for who you are and love is love" she said kissing me on the forehead.
I went upstairs to my room and flipped onto my bed. I stared at the ceiling thinking of Sam he looked so broken when he left. It's not my fault but at the same time I feel it is...no it's not my fault he'll be okay right?
I decided not to overthink it and cradle myself in my blankets and get some sleep.

Maybe tomorrow will be better...