Save Me...SOLBY

•Part 13•

TW:Massive ED warning.

Sam's POV

I froze. "Y-yeah!" I tried to say full of energy Colby can't be catching on there's no way he would notice. "So you wanna explain why there's dust in your cabinets and it's full of cobwebs? You wanna explain why you haven't been eating at school? You wanna explain why just now everything started spinning?" Colby said his face growing more with sadness and anger.

"I..." I tried to say something but I couldn't I was lost for words. "So I'm gonna get you to eat your not gonna throw it up because if you do then we'll just try again" he stated. I was scared i was trembling my hands were shaking more than ever I'm so fucking stupid if I wouldn't have been such a drama Queen Colby wouldn't have been worried about me.

"Look we're gonna eat together okay? Do not throw it up you'll be fine" he said escorting me down the the kitchen. I sat down and was just dreading this moment I prayed that something would come in the middle of it and Colby would just forget about it.

Did that happen? No. Colby gave me the plate and sat next to me. It felt so awkward I haven't actually sat down and ate for ages...that sounds bad. I started just staring at it and Colby was carefully glancing at me. "C'mon" he said"it's hot..." I replied not even looking at him,I saw him nod in the corner of my eye.

What if I just throw it up when he's not looking? I picked up my fork and started eating. Colby smiled which made me smile "Why you so smiley?" He asked with a laugh at the end. "Because your smiling!" I said his smile just grew bigger with a little red on his cheeks.

After we finished eating Colby just hugged me "I'm really proud of you Sam..." he said them words made me want to cry. I held off and blinked my tears away "Thanks..." I mumbled I didn't know what to say.

"You wanna watch a movie?" Colby asked I nodded this would distract him then I can go throw up. "Sure!" I said Colby smiled which I don't understand why that made me smile. "One sec I'm just gonna go to my room be down in a minute!" I said Colby nodded and looked for a film.

I locked the bathroom door and immediately got some laxatives and threw up all my food I hated this it was so disgusting...I had to do it though. After I cleaned up I went downstairs with blankets and Colby just laughed. Time to put on my persona I thought,I forced a laugh "we need to be comfortable right?" I said he just laughed again.

I set everything up while he went to the bathroom and I was just staring at it.

What if he don't like it?
Do I need to do more?
This is terrible?
Is he gonna hit me?
Will he hate me?

I just stood there flashbacks recalling in my head. I heard footsteps which made me flinch a little "Sam you alright?" Colby asked I nodded. It's just Colby not Katrina breathe. I told myself but living in this house is just uncomfortable because everything that happened was in this house.

"Sam? You sure your okay? You seem to have something on your mind" Colby said I shook my head "Sorry I'm fine" I said sitting down he just shrugged. He hasn't noticed anything so that's good.

I continued watching the movie but my eras started ringing I ignored it. I tried to block it out but nothing was working. Colby paused the movie and I didn't even notice "Sam. Seriously what's wrong?" He asked I could barely hear him...

"Nothing just a little hot that's all" I said Colby sat back down but really close to me. I cant Like him i physically cant Like my best friend...he probably don't even like me back. If he did would he treat me like Katrina?

What. Why am I even thinking about this I'm not getting into a relationship Katrina taught me that they were fake. "Yo Sam you wanna hang out with the group? They texted me." Colby asked turning to me I didn't know what to say.