Save Me...SOLBY

•Part 14•

Sam's POV

When we got home Colby carried me straight up to bed. "Thank you..." I said he just smiled "It's alright Sam do you need anything?" He asked. I shook my head then he left,it felt so lonely without Colby here it felt so lonely.

I turned over so I was facing the ceiling and just started overthinking. Katrina,mr Paul I don't know just everything and anything. I was suddenly wide awake and I didn't wanna be. I wanted to be asleep and never wake up again.

No one knows how much pain I'm in and I don't want them to know but their all catching on. I can't keep living like this it's tiring,exhausting and just sad. Someone stepped into the room and I stood up "Oh Sam your awake?" Colby asked I nodded.

"You can speak you know?" He said walking over to me "oh" I said looking down. "Are you not tired?" He asked I shook my head "okay" he said blankly. He just hugged me and it felt so werid for no reason. "What's this for?" I asked slowly wrapping my arms around him "I love you man..." he said. "Oh...i-i love you to?" I said awkwardly I didn't know how to respond to that

The hug lasted a few seconds then I pulled away. Colby looked at me sadly and I felt so guilty "Fuck I'm so so so sorry I-I just...I um" I said as I looked down. "I'm just gonna leave if I'm bothering you..." Colby said I wanted him to stay but I didn't wanna force him.

He grabbed his things and left straight away. I threw myself Into the wall and felt so horrible "FUCK" I shouted sliding down to the floor. "Why do I have to fuck everything up?!" I screamed at myself, I'm gonna loose him next aren't I?

I ran out the house and ran after him "C-COLBY" I shouted shivering since it was so cold. He turned around and looked so worried. "Sam?" He asked his voice covered in worry "L-Listen I-I" I put my hand on my head as it started to hurt.

Colby's POV

Sam put his hand on his head and I was so worried. Just then he started muttering something but I don't know what he was saying. Soon after I saw Sam go more pale then ever and his body just collapsed I caught him as fast as I could.

I was so scared. I brought him back to him house and laid him in his bed. I wanted to leave but he looked so upset and fragile. I left him he'll be fine.

I shut the front door and walked back to my house it was so cold. I speedran back to my house and my mom was awake. "Hey dear why are you doing home?" She asked I threw my bag on the floor and sat next to her. "What happened sweetheart?" She asked rubbing my back "Sam...I um I hugged him it was only for a few seconds then he pulled away from me and he didn't even look at me..." I explained.

"Do you want me to try and talk to him?" My mom asked I nodded because I knew I wasn't gonna get anything out of him. "Okay dear you just go to your room and get some sleep you can have the day off tomorrow alright?" My mom said I shot her a smile.

I went up to my room and sat on the edge of my bed. I shouldn't have left him. I really shouldn't have why on earth would I leave him?! Why when he passed out would I just leave and not stay with him.

Surely he'll understand of course he will he's my best friend if I explain it well then he'll understand!

Sam's POV

I woke up and my head was spinning. I looked around no one was here as normal. I really wanted Colby to be like sitting by my side waiting god I'm really stupid for thinking someone would care.

I looked at the time and it was 2:30 in the morning. I sat up and everything was spinning in front of me. I laid my head back down to steady myself but it didn't work.

I wasn't going in tomorrow or today you could say. I turned off my alarm and started at the ceiling. I kept taking glances at my phone,I really wanted to text Colby and say sorry but what if he don't want to talk to me ever again?

I didn't text him. He probably hates me by now. I didn't mean to break the hug I just didn't expect it to go on for that long and I thought he would drug me or something. I know he would never but Kat always did it so I guess I just got flashbacks?

I need to apologise to Colby though...I went over to my mirror and just stared at myself in disgust. I looked at my arms and smiled. The cuts are still there...I started just judging myself and I don't know why...I'm so upset with my body and again I don't know why.

I went back to bed and just cuddled up to the blankets. Then my ears started ringing I grabbed my AirPods and put some music on and turned it all the way up.

After a few hours I checked my phone and it was 8:25 school starts at 10 I'm not going in. I put my head in the pillow then turned over to put my headphones away. As I was doing that I heard my front door unlock.

This alerted me because Katrina was the only one who had the key to my apartment...then a tall figure stood in my doorway. "Sam?" A voice called I sighed in relief it was Colby. "Hey" I said trying to make out that I wasn't crying,he walked closer to me and I started backing away.

"Listen...I'm sorry for yesterday I-I didn't mean to stop hugging you I-I'm just not used to hugs t-that long..." I apologised trying not to cry. Colby pushed me down on the bed and sat next to me.

He placed his hand on my knee again that feeling in my stomach came back...I hated it,It's the feeling I got when I first saw Katrina I thought she was the most beautiful and kindest person there is in this world. Now I know that's not true...

He started rubbing my knee with his thumb and I just looked at his hand then him. "It's okay...I shouldn't have left you...why did you pass out as well?" He asked I gulped. "It was cold..." I stated covering my face with my hoodie. He just nodded.

"Are you coming In today?" Colby asked I sat there knowing I wasn't gonna go in. "No I don't feel like it have fun with the group though!" I said I didn't wanna be a burden to them and ruin everything like I always do. Colby stood up "Alright bye Sam please text me if you need me you do know I would drop everything and anything just for you byeeee" he said closing the door.

Then words replayed in my head. Maybe he does care about me? Or is this a prank? Of course it is. No one could ever love me or care about me. What was I thinking?

IM SORRY I HAVENT BEEN UPLOADING SCHOOL IS SO SHIT AND IS TAKING UP SO MUCH TIME I'LL TRY UPLOAD A LOT MORE LOVE YOU ALL TAKE CARE <3