Save Me...SOLBY

•Part 20•

TW:Attempted suicide

Colby's POV

I woke up to Sam by my side and I smiled. He was so cute just laying there all cuddled up to the blankets with not a care in the world. I was visiting Katrina today but I don't want to I want to stay home with Sam.

I grabbed my phone and just scrolled through all my socials. I'm not ready to come out as a couple with Sam yet. Although everyone ships us together even our fans but I'm just not ready,obviously I know that we're going to loose some fans but I'm ready for that.

I felt Sam move a bit so I looked at him. "Good morning love" I said planting a kiss on his forehead,he sat up and rested his head on my shoulder "Morning..." he said tiredly. I laughed a little then went back on my phone,Sam kept fidgeting which wasn't annoying but just concerning.

"Love are you okay? Your fidgeting a lot..." I asked looked at him "Sorry..." he said taking his head off of my shoulder and creating space between us.

This was confusing because Sam's a very affectionate person...all of that disappeared when he got with Katrina...surely she didn't hurt him right? Sam would've came and told us. He went all quiet and scared and shaky when we brought Katrina up...

"Colby...? Are you o-okay?" He said stuttering a bit I'm taking as this is a way of him saying he's scared or anxious. "Yeah I'm fine my love Just thinking nothing to worry about" I said pulling him on my lap.

He laid his head on my chest and just stared at the wall. "Is this okay...?" He asked "Of course it is love" I said. I felt him going back to sleep which made me question did he sleep last night? I didn't want to ask him just in case he would wake up again and not go back to sleep.

"Sam...did you sleep last night?" I asked him he shook his head. "Why didn't you wake me up...?" I asked he just shrugged. "Alright my love just get some sleep okay?" I said rubbing his back but he just stayed awake.

"Cant you sleep?" I asked he shook his head and sat up. "Sam...I have a question but you need to be ready for it..." I said putting my hands on his back. "Y-yeah?" He asked I sighed as I saw him grow more anxious. "Did Katrina ever hurt you? Like was she abusive or anything?" I asked,Sam seemed to just freeze. He didn't move he didn't speak and he was barely breathing.

Then he stopped his trance and looked at me. "No why would you think that?" He asked I just sighed knowing he was lying "because I've noticed a lot since we got together...you flinched more harder at my touch,you think you can't do want you want,you need reassurance every minute,you don't talk much,you seem to just have random breakdown and sadness". I saw Sam go as pale as a ghost.

Then he started crying. I held him close and stroked his hair. "Hey hey I'm not mad...I just want to know so I can understand more..." I said he just broke down more,I wanted to help him not make him more scared...

"Sam breathe...I promise I'm not made I just want to know so I can understand more and why you act the way you act then give you the reassurance that you need to become more confident..." I told him. He started calming down which was good and I was happy about.

He fully calmed down and started talking "She was really abusive...like really um..." he stopped talking and sat up looking at me. "Sam...please tell me everything I don't want you suffering alone..." I said he then started talking again. "It wasn't just hitting or punching or shouting...it was more...way more."

I really wanted to know more but weather Sam would tell me or not is a different story. "Sometimes she would...kick me until I bled out then she would go out to have sex with another guy. Other times before school she would beat me with whatever she could fine. It could be a bat or something she didn't care. If I was late home she would knock me out and leave me lying in my own pool of blood,if I begged for mercy she'd beat me more..." Sam explained my face grew so much more sadder.

"I don't think I'm allowed to do certain things because Katrina would hit me if I did something I should've and now I'm just scared even if I breathe wrong...sorry for causing so many problems..." his last sentence broke me. He's not causing problems in face Katrina is the problem.

"Do you still have any bruises..." I asked hesitantly he then stood up. "I have loads..." he lifted up his shit revealing his side and there stood a Nasty black and purple bruise...something that was also really concerning is you could literally see his bones.

Then he revealed one on his neck that had a handprint "This happened because I forgot to do the washing up and she basically strangled me until I passed out..." he explained. Before he could say anymore I pulled him into a hug.

How can someone so fucking sweet go through all that...? "I hope you know I would never do anything like that..." I said he nodded. "You don't think I will do you?" I asked him he shook his head.

"Okay well I'm gonna go out quickly" I said walking into the bathroom. I opened the cabinet and saw a bottle of pills...? I didn't say anything I knew what Sam was going to do and I wasn't letting him do that. I got ready then put the pills in my pocket where they were hidden.

I walked out and kissed Sam on the forehead then left.

Sams POV

Colby left and I absolutely hated myself for telling him everything he's going to absolutely hate me now...I sat there staring at the wall thinking how much he knows and how much I just opened up to him...

I pondered for a little bit before walking to the bathroom and throwing open the cabinets trying to fine the bottles of pills I kept. I got panicked that I didn't even hear Colby come back.

"Looking for these?" He askeD holding up the bottle of pills I was looking for. I was lost for words I didn't know what to say. He came and sat next to me as he wrapped his arm around my body. "Sam please...I don't want to loose you okay? I don't care if you struggle I'll help you,you don't understand how many times you've saved me without know it...I love you..."Colby said hugging. E tight.

I didn't know what to say or do because he just found me trying to kill myself...how much worse can my life be? Colbys literally the only light in my life and I don't know how to thank him...

He's done so much and hasn't left me yet and I don't understand how. I'm so much to Handel and he's just stuck with me and never switched up on me...

"I love you Sam I promise I do please believe me I'll do everything in my power to make you feel loved care and appreciated even if it takes my whole life I'm willing to do that..." he said close to my ear.

"I love you to..." I said.