Save Me...SOLBY

•Part 10•

TW:MAJOR ANGST,SH,BREAKDOWN

Sam's POV

I didn't wanna go into school I was terrified I hated that place anyways but today I just didn't want to. I got ready really slowly then I checked the time and I was meant to leave 20 minutes ago.
I left and didn't even lock the door as I dragged myself to school I got a gut feeling that I should just stay home. As I arrived at school I saw the group and they all just rolled their eyes. "A-are you guys okay?" I asked "Don't  act fucking stupid! You know what you did." Elton said I was so confused.
"Could you guys explain?" I asked I was so anxious in this moment Devon stepped forward "You fucking worthless piece of shit. You Sexually assaulted KATRINA?! YOUR OWN GIRLFRIEND You fucking waste of space we can't be friends anymore." She said slapping me.
That hurt from Devyn...I ran to the bathroom and locked the door I wasn't going to come out for the rest of the day. I didn't even do anything...I would never do that to Katrina I love her to much for that...
I grabbed my blade out the bottom of my bag and stared at it twirling it in my hands for a bit before squeezing it a little. I saw little blood trinkets fall down my hand I smiled at the comfort of my own blood.
I pulled up my sleeve and stared at the marks all on my arms I scraped the blade across my wrist reopening some cuts. Then just stared at the blood that was flowing down my wrist.
I lifted my legs up on the toilet and just cried ignoring the fact that my own blood was falling onto the floor.

Colby's POV

I walked over to the group and they were all laughing but Sam wasn't there. "Hey guys!" I said waving they all waved back saying hi. "Where's Sam? Has he not arrived?" I asked the group just looked at me.
"What's happening?" I asked I was genuinely really confused everyone seemed like I just committed a crime or something. "Brother listen. We're not friends with Sam anymore we dropped him" my heart dropped "He sexually assaulted Katrina and everyone in the school knows I mean you wouldn't wanna be friends with someone who assaults their own girlfriend right?" Jake asked me.
I was lost for words but Sam would never do that...Everyone just looked at me really sad. "We know he's your best friend but..." Elton said anger rushed through me "SO YOU DROPPED HIM?! DID YOU EVEN LET HIM EXPLAIN?! DO YOU KNOW WHAT COULD HAPPEN?! How do you know it's true?" I asked I was so annoyed.
"Man even Kat told us so we replaced Sam with Katrina!" Corey said happily. I punched the wall "YOU FUCKING IDIOTS" I shouted Jake grabbed my hands and held them back. "Colby breathe..." he said I calmed down a little.

"Sam would never do that I know WE know he would never do that..." I said looking down everyone just looked at me. "We don't know that..." Elton said I sighed "Did anything happen?" I asked everyone looked at Devyn.
"I-I slapped him..." she said this just made me furious. I clapped sarcastically "Well done Dev he's never gonna trust you again." I said she just looked shocked "Oh so now you feel bad?" I laughed "Pathetic." I said walking away.
I know Sam would never do that I'm not gonna drop him I can't loose him he's always gonna be my best friend no matter what. I looked in every classroom he wasn't there,I looked by his locker he wasn't there,I looked with Mrs Green (Sam's favioute teacher) he wasn't there then I made my way to the bathroom.
I heard quiet sobs from the last stall. I knocked "Sam? Is that you?" I asked gently I heard a gasp "Are you okay?" I asked he stayed quiet. I heard the door unlock and Sam came out looking like a mess. "S-Sam?" I didn't even recognise him anymore. He washed his face and looked at my knuckles. He grabbed some tissues and disinfectant wipes from his bag and started cleaning the blood off.
"Thanks" I said looking down at him "Come" I said grabbing his arm he shook his head. "But we have class?" I said looking at him "I-I might just g-Go home..." he said the poor boy was trembling.
"Okay...want me to take you to the reception?"Sam shook his head. I shrugged and just went on to class but I really didn't wanna leave him. Fuck it. I mumbled as I ran after him taking him to reception. "Hello Boys what could I do for you?" The receptionist asked with a smile "He feels really lightheaded and almost passed out in class" I said for Sam he couldn't even talk because of how badly he was trembling.
"Awww you poor thing...go on home what's your name?" She asked "His name is Samuel" I said she nodded. "Right try and get some rest alright? Take care" she said as sam left.
I went off to class but it didn't feel right without Sam.
After classes and I met up with the group I didn't wanna speak to any of them but I didn't wanna loose them either even if I did it's Sam & Colby against the world. No matter what it always will be.
"Listen we're sorry brother..." Jake said to me "It's fine but you guys can't just drop him like that you didn't ask him to tell his side you just believed Kat!" I said I didn't raise my voice or anything I was just annoyed.
"He's been in the bathroom all day crying when I found him he looked like shit...then all he cared about was my hand" I said holding my bandaged hand up. "Where is he now? In class?" Corey asked "No he went home because you idiots made him feel so bad about himself he didn't wanna stay he couldn't speak because he was trembling that bad" I told them.
They all looked down ashamed. "You should be ashamed. You need to say sorry to him even if it's over text just say sorry it won't cost anything but Dev you might have broken his trust and you may never get it back. He won't be comfortable with any of you until he's gotten used to you again" I warned them.
I was gonna go to Sam at lunch anyway I wasn't letting his stay alone.

Sam's POV

FUCK. I just wanted to scream my wrists hurt like hell my head hurts everything fucking hurts. I dragged myself home but I knew my legs were gonna give out any minute now.
I managed to get in the door and I just dragged myself upstairs I had to use the rail to hold me us. Was I really loosing that much blood? I stumbled into the bathroom and grabbed the bandages.
I cleaned my wrists with antiseptic wipes I winced at the pain after I wrapped them up. After I just collapsed onto my bed my phone started going crazy but I ignored it. It's not Katrina I know that she would just come here and screamed at me.
After a few hours I heard the front door open it can't be Katrina it's to early. Then I heard a gently knock on my door yeah that's definitely not Kat I thought to myself. "Come in" I mumbled then Colby walked in.
He sat in the bed with him and just looked at me. "You doing alright?" I sat up against the headboard as he asked that. "Yeah I'm fine shouldn't you be at school?" I said looking at my hands.
He grabbed my chin and made me look at him "look me in the eyes and tell me your fine." He said I couldn't do that...I hate eye contact "That's what I thought" he said letting go of my chin. For some reason I felt werid when he did that not in a bad way but I just felt werid.
"Here I brought you some food as well..." he said smiling I just smiled back "Thanks Colby but I'm not hungry" I said he just looked at me. "Sam eat." He demanded I was scared "I-I'm not h-hungry..." I stuttered out "Samuel John Golbach. Eat right now." He said.
I sat on the edge of my bed and started eating I just forced it down me I'd throw it up after. "And don't even think about throwing it up" he said staring at me. I'll just throw it up when your gone I told myself.
My leg started bouncing up and down, Colby noticed because he put his hand on my knee to stop it. I put my head in my hands and just sighed "Sam it's okay...just breathe" he said rubbing my knee with his thumb.
It felt comforting when he did it but at the same time it brought back Katrina...I don't know what's happening but this is just ridiculous I can't possibly be falling for my best friend...

Can I?