vēlāka dienasgrāmata | Glamorous

rudiments

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     Oh look, I cut out you two, but kept her... This is so wrong. Noo! It just shows that people don't live in a linear axis! And do they? They don't. And for some reason I didn't want you to know, but it makes me happy she liked this information, this weakness of mine. Why can I be open with her, why have I put this... idea? In my head? That i should trust him, therefore i do trust her, even if I've met her twice, and both were more greeting like than meeting like. I don't think about her in a way i think about people i know, i think about her in a way where she just deserves to know and is with me without being here once. I think of her as if she understood me the way he never did, i think of her as better than people i know. Because he saw her as a flower, as the most precious, the most valuable, because I trust his decision and therefore i must trust her with anything going on in my head. And if we ever get to know each other to a point where I've been mistaken, we can always step back where i had a trust without a flaw and without a rudiment [back]

:･ﾟ✧:･.☽˚｡･ﾟ✧:･.:

     Man vairs neviena nevajag, man ir tik labi, viņa nospieda sirdīti, man vairs nekā nevajag, es varētu izslēgt visus citus cilvēkus, jo šis ir labi, šis nebija mērķis, bet neko vairāk es neprasu, neviena cita apstiprinājumu man nevajag, neviena cita reakcija nav tik svarīga... Paula, kas notiek
      es nevarēju klausīties fejiskumus, es nevarēju klausīties pārāk prieka, bet šeit vēl dzīvo pārāk skumjas
      kam sūdzēt, kam teikt, negribu neviena, kas zina, kas šie ir
      Līga ir viena, bet Induli viņa zina, un tā šī lieta dodas citas ausis meklēt, bet visi mani gali Induli zina, un tāds jau bija mērķis, tad varbūt viņam pašam jāraksta, bet man jau nav viņa numura... jāraksta papīrā, nē, jāraksta sev, jāizdomā tikai tik daudz, lai var dzīvot, vairāk mans laiks nespēs
      Paula, ko tu dari