' I'm so addicted to you.. every time I escape I'm pulled right back into your arms.'
A slow burn story about how Sadie Devoire (oc) and her Ex-Boyfriend Harry Lewis overcome the obstacles and insecurities of their past relationship in an attempt to...
I sat on my bed, blanket draped over me as I binged shameless. I was on season 2 episode 1 so far. It was 6:20pm and I'm not going to give specific times but id started rewatching it from season 1 that same day.
Whenever I was feeling down I'd just binge some Netflix and stuff my feelings way down. I'd posted an older photo onto my instagram earlier as I usually did when I was feeling down and didn't want people to notice it.
I'd seen Harry had liked it which made me smile a little more than I wanted. I didn't want to go back to him but damn did I miss him. I'd also seen him comment on a few hate posts which practically made my heart skip a beat when I watched him defend me.
Yet here I was. Laying in my bed, looking a wreck and staring at a tv for hours on end. My phone was on Do Not Disturb as I didn't want people to bother me right now. But I already knew quite well that my phone was gonna explode with notifications the minute I turned it on. Therefore I wasn't going to until I was in a better mood.
By 5am I was still sitting there watching shameless. I wasn't sure which season I was on anymore and I could feel my body giving up. Most people when they are upset try to sleep away their feelings, on the other hand people like me refuse to sleep. It's kind of like a defense mechanism? I won't accept that I'm upset but I know quite well that if I fall asleep I'll wake up in a state.
By 7:34 my body had given up and I fell asleep. I woke up around 2:41 to the sound of banging on my door. With a sigh I got up and for the first time in hours I left my room.
'Hello.??' I opened the door, my hair in a state and massive eye bags taking up most of my face.
'You didn't- .. are you okay?' Lacey was standing there all dressed up and ready. She started off the sentence annoyedly but after a quick look at me her entire tone changed which pissed me off. I wasn't good with accepting sympathy or help.
'I'm fine.. what did you need?' I groaned out tiredly.
'We were supposed to go shopping at 2! I've been waiting for ages.. what happened?'
'I just slept in..' I sighed and rubbed my eyes, 'sorry I kept you waiting. Do you think we could reschedule?'
'Yeah we can reschedule but you never sleep in unless you stay up late. When did you go to bed' she leaned on the wall.
'I don't know? Why do you care so much.' I snapped back, a lot more aggressive than I expected or meant.
'Damn okay.. just checking your okay because you my best friend? Didn't know that was so horrible.' She stormed out the flat and slammed the door.
'Wait Lacey-' I called out but she was gone. I felt tears rolling down my cheek and I ran back into my room. Back into my bed and right back to watching Tv.
I checked the clock and it now read 5:32 Id had a nap or two and felt a little less tired. I hadn't gained the guts to unmute my phone and check the notifications yet but I knew I needed to so I could apologise to Lacey.
With a deep breath I unmuted the phone. As I expected I had hundreds of messages, missed calls, social media notifications and more.
"Tal" 'Heyy, how are you?' It had been sent at 1:21 which made me feel sorry for not responding.
'Hii! Sorry I didn't respond earlier I was super busy x. I'm good hru?' I typed the response quickly and didn't wait for a reply.
"Lacey"
'Heyy you ready??' Send at 1:45 'I'm just heading over now! Can't waittt' sent at 1:55 'Heyy I'm here!! So exciteddd' sent at 2:01 'You okay?' Sent at 2:10 'Sade?' Sent at 2:15 'You coming?' Sent at 2:16 3 missed calls 'sorry for the spam. You on your way yet?' Sent at 2:23 'is everything alright Sadie?' Sent at 2:27 'I'm just gonna head round to yours if that's okay?' Sent at 2:34 'ok I'm coming over' sent at 2:38 Missed call at 2:40
I sighed and pondered a response but I could find an apology good enough. After loads of thinking and tears and going through my notes app I decided it would be better to apologise in person which I would sort out once I was done with my messages.
I continued responding before a certain name caught my eye. A text I wouldn't have expected.
'Hey, I was wondering if you'd like to go out and chat? I know it didn't go well last time but I've missed you.'
I wiped my past tears and let me smile take over my face.
'I'd love to, Wednesday at 4? I've missed you too Max.'
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