Me , Myself and I

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i don't blame you for not loving me i blame you for pretending you did

My pain was never caused by unrequited love,

it was caused by your sick selfishness of you loving how I loved you.

You enjoyed how I fed your ego.

You enjoyed how you were the exception to all my rules and promises I made to myself.

You loved the power you had over me.

You didn't love me

Yet, you let me keep believing you still loved me.

You see it was so much deeper than just unrequited love.

breaking me apart put you together.

I let go of my pain , I let go of my anguish

I let go of you

I still wonder how easy it was me for to let you go ,

Prentend and denying your existence,

the distant memory of your face still roams my mind ,

you are in front of me

I lie , I would have destroyed myself for you ,

I destroyed myself for you

I sleep peaceful at night , I sleep anguished at night , I'lI tear the pieces of you out of my brain.

until the day I can no longer remember your name.

When the time comes along and I have finally moved on,

I won't remember the way we used to dance in my kitchen,

I'll have ripped up all the notes we had written.

I won't remember the sound of your laugh,

i'll have burned all of our photographs.

There will be a time when where I can no longer recall the days you made me feel as if I was easy forgotten after all.

Or the nights I spent crying on my bathroom floor, begging you to stay just a second more.

l'll convince myself that you never existed, pretending my life won't be forever afflicted.

I'lI tear the pieces of you out of my brain. until the day I can no longer remember your name.

"It frightens me to find out that I was drawing my dreams for a blind man

And describing my feelings to a deaf man

And writing my pain to an illiterate man