Johnnie's pov
Jake was gone doing something for his live stream, we made cookies yesterday that was fun, I decided to pull out my phone and watch our live stream from yesterday that Jake posted on YouTube I laugh at us and decide read the comments most of them being nice like "lol Jake and Johnnie are so funny" or "they are the best duo ever" I smile at that untill I scroll down more and one comment stands out to me "why is Jake even friends with him he's weird and ugly Jake is probably just trying to make him feel better" I read that comment over and over I shut off my phone and think, the more I think the more I agree with them Jake probably just feels bad for me I mean if I were him I would too I mean I'm emo and not funny I lay in bed thinking and thinking untill I can't stop the thoughts as they run through my head I feel tears in my eyes as I get up and run into the bathroom I look at myself in the mirror "God I'm ugly" I say as the thoughts run threw my head "stop" I whisper holding my head I hear the front door unlock but I ignore it "stop!" I say louder putting my hands on the counter "Stop!" I yell and punch my hand into the mirror I look at broken mirror and the shaterd glass on the counter then at my hand that is bleeding I look back at the mirror "shit shit shit!" I yell tears in my eyes as I back up looking at the mirror blood dripping everywhere I hear a knock "Johnnie?" I hear but I ignore it I fall onto the ground and look at the mirror "look at what you did you dumb piece of shit!" I yell at myself in the mirror "Johnnie I'm about to brake down this door" I hear Jake yell as he try opening the door,
I come back to my senses realizing getting up and unlocking the door he looks at me then the mirror then the floor that has small piles of blood on it then he looks at my fist "Johnnie what happened!" He says confused walking into the bathroom "i-i will pay for the mirror I'm sorry jake" I say looking at him still shocked tears in my eyes "Johnnie that doesn't matter rn show me your fist" I show him my fist he takes it and exams my hand "it's not to bad just needed a little cleaning" he says pulling out the med kit "come on let's go into the kitchen where it's not so messy" he says softly leading me into the kitchen "sit" he says pointing to the counter I hop on the counter and sit he grabs alcohol wipes and bandages "this might hurt" he says as he wipes my knuckles I wince and close my eyes he takes my hands and starts wrapping it, it was silent between us untill he broke it "Johnnie what happened" he asks softly as he puts away the bandages and med kit "i-i watched our video and I read the comments they were so nice untill they weren't" I say looking down tears in my eyes "Johnnie" he says putting his hamd on my cheeks making me look at him "what did they say Johnnie" he says looking at me "they said I was ugly and weird and your only friends with me because you feel bad" I whisper looking at him tears falling down my face "Johnnie" he says wiping my tears "you are so god damn pretty your weird but that's what I like about you and I want to be friends with you not because I feel bad because we have a connection" he says smiling I smile leaning my face into his touch "thanks Jake" I say smiling he nods looking at me his eyes went from mine to my lips then back to my eyes "Johnnie can I kiss you?" He asks looking at me I blush and nod he softly pulls me in for a kiss it being so gentle and sweet he pulls away smiling "Johnnie I've liked you for awhile" he says smiling "I like you too Jake" I say smiling "Johnnie will you be my boyfriend?" He asks doing his biggest smile ever it was so fucking adorable "yes ofc Jake" I say smiling he gives me a kiss on the cheek I smile "come on its getting late let's go to bed I will clean the bathroom up in the morning" he says picking me up and carrying me to his bedroom, we lay in his bed his arm wrapped around my waist my face in his chest as we both fall asleep. <3
