Johnnie's pov
I lay in my bed staring at my wall not being able to sleep I haven't for days i feel dead I haven't eaten or drank in days but that doesn't stop Jake from leaving food and water at my door, everyday he comes to my door and knocks telling me he left food at my door I only let out a small groan letting him know I'm alive but today was different I wanted to see Jake I needed him he's the one who makes me feel comfortable,
I slowly sit up and stand up I stretch and walk to my door opening it seeing food from earlier on the ground i can hear Jake in his room I smile and walk to his door quietly I open the door and see him laying on his bed on his phone he looks up seeing me he looks a little surprised "Johnnie your finally up!" He says smiling I nod and walk over to his bed laying down next to him
I hear him let out a small chuckle I groan and look up at him I slowly scoot closer and lay my head against his chest he smiles and plays with my hair I smile "Johnnie you should probably eat ans shower" he whispers I nod as I slowly stand up "I'll make food while you take a shower!" He says as he runs to the kitchen I smile and walk to the bathroom I lock the door and look in the mirror God I look bad I sigh and undress turning on the water after a min I step in and let the hot water touch my skin I let out a small gasp.
After I was done I step out of the shower and look in the mirror I'm not even gonna bother putting on makeup I sigh and dry myself off and put on my clothes I walk out of the bathroom and into the kitchen I see Jake on the couch I walk over to him and sit down he turns his head a smiles at me I smile back as I stare at the wall "you okay Johnnie?" He asks that strikes a cord in me no one has really asked me that before I try not to cry and nod not looking at him "Johnnie look at me" he says I slowly turn looking at him "why are you crying" his voice softens I look at him as he pulls me into a hug thats when I feel it his touch the only thing I needed at that moment was Jake I didn't need anyone else only him his voice,touch,smell he was my comfort and always was,
I lean my head into his chest sobbing he wraps his arm around my waist and the other rubbing my back "shhh it's okay im here" he whispers In my ear I sob holding him tighter hiding my face in his chest not wanting him to see my tear struck face "I hate myself I don't like how I look or act" I whisper against his chest he pull me up and looks at me wiping the tears from my face "what are you saying Johnnie, your most beautiful boy ever and I love how you act its cute" he says smiling at me as he leaves a kiss on my head "I would never leave you for anyone Johnnie and I'll never replace you I only want you" he says smiling softly at me I smile slightly at him I lay my head in his chest "get some sleep ill still be here in when you wake up" he whispers I nod and slowly fall asleep his face In my hair his breathing easy as I go limp in his arms falling asleep with the one boy I will always trust. 💓
