f1 one shots

! when we were young- Jules Bianchi

Author: This is a tribute to all the Jules Bianchi girlies I'm sorry i had to...

Everybody loves the things you do
From the way you talk
To the way you move
Everybody here is watching you
'Cause you feel like home
You're like a dream come true

2000
I laid my eye on a sweet boy in front of me while I was carting. I never noticed him but now that he's talking to me he seems nice... He seems sweet maybe I can be his friend! "Hey what's your name?" I smiled as I gave him my hand "I'm Jules!" He cheers "nice to meet you, ill race after you!!" I laughed as I put my helmet on "game on" he giggled.

But if by chance you're here alone
Can I have a moment?
Before I go?
'Cause I've been by myself all night long
Hoping you're someone I used to know

2012
"Julessss" I ran to him "I did it I got a few teams that wants me like you, I'm coming for you juless"  I giggle as I walked with him back to my drivers room "I'll look forward to it" he patted my head "I'll  beat you to the world Championship" I grinned "I'm sure you'll be able to kick my ass sweetheart" he winked "better watch your back Bianchi" .

You look like a movie
You sound like a song
My God this reminds me, of when we were young

2013
"Ha we got it" I grinned as we signed a contract with f1 Teams "I'll beat you to Ferrari" he smiles sweetly  "no I'll beat you to it" I stuck my tongue out at him . "At least I got a win" he giggled as he patted my back and ran up to the podium lifting the trophy up high as I watched him smile and have the time of his life he smiles brightly and very lively.

Let me photograph you in this light
In case it is the last time
That we might be exactly like we were
Before we realized
We were scared of getting old
It made us restless
It was just like a movie
It was just like a song

2014
I never thought I'd be standing here on the podium winning my first ever win in my whole carrier I won in Austria "julesss I won I wonnn" ran up to him after the race and hugged him "let's celebrate yeah?" He smiles at me  "yess let's get ice cream?, please?" I begged him "yep let's clean up do some press and after we can enjoy a nice victory ice cream for your first f1 win you can get as much as you'd like? Sounds good?" He patted my head "pretty good"

I was so scared to face my fears
Nobody told me that you'd be here
And I'd swear you moved overseas
That's what you said, when you left me

At some point it scares me the fact that I'd be in f1 to be the only female driver there. And how the press can be really intimidating especially on their questions I have to walk around it just so I don't say anything stupid and get my manager and me in trouble. Being the only female driver is bad enough, but I will keep going for Jules mainly but for  Charles too , I know one day that kid will be the best of the best and loved by the world.

You still look like a movie
You still sound like a song
My God, this reminds me, of when we were young

"Look who's here back in the paddock" I smile as I walked towards Charles and Jules who was walking around the paddock "oh how big you are" I hugged Charles "you remind me of younger joules, my my" I smile as I look up at Jules "hows everything back home?" I look at joules "everythings fineee also mama was asking about you" he laughed "well tell mama I'll be visiting her when I can yeah? I'll maybe bring my mama too"  he patted my head "go get ready" he gave me a playful push "you're always the same I swear"

When we were young
(When we were young)
When we were young
(When we were young)

"Look at what I found" I laughed  as I waved an old picture of both me Jules  as I ran to him "don't wave that around" he laughed as he tries to take it away from me "nooo it's adorable I swear" I doge his grasp "my god it's embarrassing pleasee"  he laughed and Daniel Riccardo passed and saw the commotion "my is that you mate?" He laughed "yess it's Jules and me isn't he adorable???"

It's hard to win me back
Everything just takes me back
To when you were there
To when you were there

2015

I went to fulfill my promise and visited Jules mom, just to have a refresher as she happily chatted away and talked about when he was younger before I met him and more pictures of him. I sat there enjoying everything she told me, I ended up staying around her for a week just because she wanted me to and I have nothing better to do.

And a part of me keeps holding on
Just in case it hasn't gone
I guess I still care
Do you still care?

I cried myself for days after the crash I could even finish the race, I was not in a good place making me very unstable if I do continue I fear I might end up just like him. But  I couldn't believe he died, I will never see him ever again like not till time runs out on me. I just walked towards Charles and patted his head "I know this is hard but keep pushing for us yeah?" He nodded quietly and so quietly.

It was just like a movie
It was just like a song
My God, this reminds me
Of when we were young

When we were young
(When we were young)
When we were young
(When we were young)

2016

I couldn't believe it i raised a trophy in the track where it killed Jules a year ago. I couldn't believe it I really can't, i won first place where he deserved it I raised it in the name of Jules as tears streamed down my face. Just like how I used to be upset when I won even though Jules could've won but didn't because he got hit by another person. I really miss him everyone does I even placed a '17' tattoo on my wrist so everyone can see it when I raise a trophy to the world to see.

Let me photograph you in this light
In case it is the last time
That we might be exactly like we were
Before we realized
We were sad of getting old

2018

I can't believe it's been 3 years and Charles made it here he looks just like Jules he reminds me of him, he has the same smile as Jules which melts my heart every time. I'm still not over it yet but I know that one day I will. I miss him he has a very special place in my heart and forever will even when I die I'll love him, I didn't get the chance to say how much I loved him before he passed and I still regret that every single day.

It made us restless
Oh I'm so mad I'm getting old
It makes me reckless

2019

The thought of him and how much i miss him hurts me, I told my self I'll get over it but I didn't and I'm giving up on F1 I'm retiring this is my last season maybe one day I'll come back to f1 maybe I won't that depends on me If i still have the heart to keep going . But I don't think I will im already very happy with the amount of wins and podiums so ill happily retire and find a job or something. But I think my mental state is pretty bad so I would rather stay away from stress for a while before I go back to work.

It was just like a movie
It was just like a song
When we were young

Charles pov:

"Well...?" Daniel asked "this book isn't really a diary" I  huffed "then what is it, it looks like a yearly diary" Daniel asked confused "well it is some sort of diary... There's just these words underlined under in the beginning ,every update  and the ending... " Daniel took a look "wait these are lyrics...." Daniel took out his phone "no I know this song, it's when we were younger " he laughed "I see" he smiled "what does that even mean?"Daniel frowned "you see this is what they call 'their song'  when they were younger" I chuckled as I placed the book down "I think she knew she wouldn't be back on the track" Daniel huffed "yeah she knew" I nodded "well at least they are back together right? " Daniel smiled