★‧˚Bucky Barnes-One Shots・˚₊༉

Gone

‘Being without you has been one of the most difficult moments for me.

Not having you by my side helping me as usual kills me.

I die inside when I wake up knowing that I won't be able to see you.

Never again.

I've fought all my life, fought for people who never care about me.

I fought for HYDRA, I fought for Steve, it's the same thing.

Everyone see me as a weapon.

A wild animal that will never be tamed.

Everyone saw me like that, except you.

You could see a light inside me, one that I didn't even know was there.

You made me feel human again.

And since I met you, I started doing everything for you.

Wake up for you.

Take care of me for you.

fight for you.

I was finally able to fight to protect those I loved, fight for my own interest.

Keep you safe.

But I realize that even in that, I failed.

I failed you, I'm sorry.

I'm sorry I didn't tell you that I loved you.

I'm sorry it took me so long to realize that I loved you.

And now that you're gone, I know exactly how much I love you.

I know how much I miss you.

I know how much I need you.

Now that you're gone, I realize how my life no longer makes sense, not without you.

I may not remember my past, I may not remember my own name, but you will always be in my heart and mind.

You will always be the only person who managed to make me feel human.

And now I'm a dead man, an empty man.

Because I need you.

Without you, I am incomplete.’

★

I crumpled the page where I wrote everything I felt, I didn't have the courage to say it, not without you.

I felt the tears coming back to me, I left the church before anyone could see me start to cry.

It didn't matter Steve or what others thought, I wasn't strong enough to be at your funeral,I still didn't believe it.

I didn't want to believe it, I wanted it to not be true, that it was all one of your typical jokes and that you would come back to me, hug me and swear that you would never leave me.

But no, everything seemed to be a nightmare and in a way it was.

My worst nightmare had come true, losing you.

Falling in love with you was the most dangerous thing I have ever done, I took the risk even knowing that maybe it would never be possible, or that maybe I would lose you.

To my damn luck, both things happened.

I have been left without you, without your look, without your hugs, without your love.

It's the worst torture I've ever had, and believe me when I say I know about torture.

Staying alive without you, for me it doesn't make any sense.

I thought you would be the only one who wouldn't leave me, who wouldn't abandon me, but unfortunately, you were one of the ones who left, and the one who hurt me the most.

Rest in peace, my love.

My doll,my sun,my everything.

I hope to meet you again soon, I miss you.

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

#552

Something similar to longing but with Bucky being the one who loses their beloved y/n

hifsawiiwi

Thanks for giving the idea,here you go!