To: Lalalalisa_97@aol.com
From: Xx_RubyJane@aol.com
Subject: [UNSENT EMAIL] I'm sorry
Dear Lisa,
I'm sorry. That's the thing I need to say first. I'm sorry about telling Jisoo about your mom. I didn't mean to, but that's not an excuse. I fucked up and I need to own it. I'm sorry. I'm so fucking sorry. I don't think I'm very good at forgiveness ... which means it's kind of messed up that I want yours so bad.
I miss you. I think about you all the time. I can't stop. All I want is to touch you. To kiss you. To lay down in bed with you. I replay moments in my mind—the freckles on your back, the lotion between my fingers.... I wanted to turn around that night, after the party, when we were alone. I wanted to turn and stand there and let you look at me. I wanted you to see all of me as much as I wanted to see you.
I wanted more than that. I wanted everything. I dream about it—waking up tangled with you, and when I wake up and you're not there it's like someone's punched me each time.
I don't know how to do this. I don't know how to want someone so much and not have them and I know you'd laugh. Spoiled little Jennie, not getting what she wants.
But I can't breathe. I can't think.
You make me want to throw my life away, and I can't.
I won't.
But God, do I want to.
-Jennie
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New Girl in Town
RomanceJenLisa AU. It's summertime and 16-year-old Lisa is forced to move to rural Oregon with her father after just losing her mother, she is in no position to risk her already fragile heart. But when she meets Jennie, the attraction is immediate. Jennie...
