Until I met him

The funeral

Kian woke me up at 5:00 to go shopping. I loved that he woke me up. We walk downstairs and write the others a note informing them where we were going. We get in the car and start jamming out to trap queen this is the happiest I have been in the past 2-3 days I'm like, "Hey, what's up? Hello."
Seen your pretty ass soon as you came in that door
I just wanna chill, got a sack for us to roll
Married to the money, introduced her to my stove
Showed her how to whip it, now she remixin' for low
She my trap queen, let her hit the bando
We be countin' up, watch how far them bands go
We just set a goal, talkin' matchin' Lambos
A 50, 60 grand, prob' a hundred grams though
Man, I swear I love her how she work the damn pole
Hit the strip club, we be letting bands go
Everybody hating, we just call them fans though
In love with the money, I ain't ever letting go

[Hook:]
And I get high with my baby
I just left the mall, I'm getting fly with my baby, yeah
And I can ride with my baby
I be in the kitchen cooking pies with my baby, yeah
And I can ride with my baby
I just left the mall, I'm getting fly with my baby, yeah
And I can ride with my baby
I be in the kitchen cooking pies with my baby

(I'm like, "Hey, what's up? Hello.")

[Verse 2:]
I hit the strip with my trap queen 'cause all we know is bands
I just might snatch a 'Rari and buy my boo a Lamb'
I just might snatch her a necklace, drop a couple on a ring
She ain't wanting for nothin' because I got her everything
It's big Zoo Wap from the bando, without dinero can't go
Remy boys got the stamp, count up hella them bands though
How far can your bands go?
Fetty Wap I'm living fifty thousand K how I stand though
If you checking for my pockets I'm like

[Hook]

[Verse 1]

I be smoking dope and you know Backwoods what I roll
Remy Boy, Fetty eating shit up that's fasho
I'll run in ya house, then I'll fuck your hoe
'Cause Remy Boyz or nothing, Re-Re-Remy Boyz or nothing

[Outro:]
Yeah, you hear my boy
Sounding like a zillion bucks on a track
I got whatever on my boy, whatever
Put your money where your mouth is
Money on the wood make the game go good
Money outta sight cause fights
Put up or shut up
Uh, Nittdagrit
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We finished as we pulled into the parking lot at target. We bought a really cute dress that Kian specifically liked😏 (the picture). We get in the car and we talk about who was going and all that jazz. We get back in and it was 7:00 everyone was up and was dressed their best "kian baby can I talk to you please?" I asked hesitantly. "Yeah?" "Follow me." I told him we get in the room I put my dress on. "Baby this is really weird but can you help my uncles and cousin carry my moms casket they need one more person." I said in a scared tone." Yes babygirl I loved your mom." "Thanks." We all get into our cars. Jc and Ellie me and Kian were in my car. Riley Connor Trevor and Aspen were in Connors car. Sam and Ricky were in Sams car. We get to the funeral. I can barely walk. As I make my way to the bench outside Kian comes over to sit with me. I put my head on his shoulder and kissed him as he sang;Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'll be the one if you want me to
Anywhere I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I... I'm feeling so small
It was over my head
I know nothing at all
And I... will stumble and fall
I'm still learning to love
Just starting to crawl

Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
Anywhere I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I... will swallow my pride
You're the one that I love
And I'm saying goodbye

Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
And anywhere I would've followed you (Oh-Ooh)
Say something, I'm giving up on you

Say something, I'm giving up on you
Say something...
He finished and I wiped my messed up makeup and I walked through the double doors of the church. I was kindly greeted by my close relatives and I walked to the front of the church and I was greeted by rhia. She gave me a hug and said "it's gonna be okay I promise." I hugged her again and went sit down. The service was about to start. I stood up and walked to the podium. I clear my throat "when I was around the age of 15 I was extremely depressed and my mother always told me "evil queens were princesses that were never saved" this was my favorite quote that my mother always told me. Before I go I wanted to say this, to loose someone you love is to alter your life forever.....the pain stops, there are new people but the gap never closes, this hole in your heart is the shape of someone you lost no one else can fit. I love you mama" after everyone said their last goodbyes the casket was closed and it felt like someone shot me,all I did was hit the ground. My mom always told me when you fall on your knees you are in the best position to pray. After everything was over we went back to the house and I told my sister I loved her and she went back to the airport and was flying back to Maine. I walked out side and thought to myself this is just what I needed I looked up and decided I needed to talk to my mom, "I look up to the sky and talk to you. What I wouldn't give to hear you talk back. I miss your voice, I miss your laughter, I miss everything about you. Mom I miss you." I said with tears forming in my eyes. I waked inside and since we had to stay late and the church we needed get home till like 8:00 pm I cooked everyone pizza we ate and talked about the services today. I spoke up "Kian thanks so much for carrying the casket it truly meant a lot for everyone. Oh and we have our 6 month checkup tomorrow for the Baby." I told Kian "you're very welcome babygirl and I know." After everyone finished eating I did the dishes and went shower I climbed in bed and told Kian "let's sing" "Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go

Staring at the bottom of your glass
Hoping one day you'll make a dream last
But dreams come slow and they go so fast

You see her when you close your eyes
Maybe one day you'll understand why
Everything you touch surely dies

But you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go

Staring at the ceiling in the dark
Same old empty feeling in your heart
'Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast

Well you see her when you fall asleep
But never to touch and never to keep
'Cause you loved her too much
And you dived too deep

Well you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go

And you let her go (oh, oh, ooh, oh no)
And you let her go (oh, oh, ooh, oh no)
Will you let her go?

'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go

'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go

Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missin' home
Only know you love her when you let her go

And you let her go" we sang "goodnight babygirl" he told me. "Goodnight Kiki. I love you." I fell asleep to the steady sound to Kians heartbeat.