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ep 28" i never wished anything much "

listen I have a lot of work to do rather than hiding your psychology books ,handling your academic issues ,stop behaving like a teenager Jack " . " I wonder if you could have became a psychologist, patients could have escaped the pain effortlessly ,if you know what I mean " ," say thanks to me for making you choose law as a career at least you can fight your own case ,which I suspect would take place from now on to your last college year .if you keep behaving like this " . My dad laughed as if it was funny .it wasn't that kind of laugh..it wasn't... . My heart has never felt this burden before . I mean yes I knew our terms since I argued for choosing psychology over law but now I don't regret it especially not from this second. It is the question of my dignity. Dear dad ..

I wasn't in a mood for dinner today ,my mother was anxiously calling all the media to not make this as a column . My videos were spread all over the gordon pages . I was wondering if I was wrong or I was in the wrong society .normally qatar is seen as a merging point for culture and modernity . what I respect about my country, my qatar was the harsh penalties for such people but how could a woman gather the courage to stand out of her boundaries .she was born to fly but her wings were weighed upon ,she was never insisted to fly ,she even tried and when she fell ,she was never given a chance again and those who fought for it where cutted off from the parameters ,like my mother . When I look at my mother it gives me a sense of relief off course she is my mother but she reminds me of strength combined with love ,understanding how she didn't let her inner self become so cold to us .

I wonder if Hailey could ever meet her . I sat on the floor putting my head on my mother's lap . She knew something was wrong with me but she didn't ask me and I was even ready to tell about Hailey. We were just " friends " after all . I was called tomorrow and I knew my suspension was approaching near by before that I need to talk to Hailey ! We just live few minutes away just one floor to another but the idea of going into her house was terrible ,I couldn't forgot the first time I visited her . I needed to know what ,why,how .. I knew it was just a blurred essence from her past story but I couldn't believe those tears falling out of her eyes to a Comment after few seconds I could spot the redness in her eyes she was walking as she wasn't herself big steps and heavy breathing. She couldn't digest it. Hailey needed a moment or maybe a long break from this day . It wasn't my fresher after all but hers . I wanted her to be raw with me .. I wish my speculations were false and I never wished anything much

Note : when Jack looks for her
Mother he finds her listening to a classic urdu ghazal of noor jahen

Hamari saanson mein aaj tak woh heena ki khushbhoo mehak rahi hai

Labo-n pe naghme machal rahe hai-n nazar se masti chhalak rahi hai

Woh mere nazdeek aate aate hayaa se ek din simat gaye the-y

Translation:
Her heena 's ( heena is a dye used for decorating a bride 's hand, the culture is prevalent among Indians and Arabs) fragnence still feels fresh to me  ,I have lost control of my tongue, I don't find right words for her,  my eyes are igniting passion for her , She feels shy as we come closer ...

These lines totally match the element of Jack and Hailey 's meets .

Jack pauses the song while putting his head on his mother's lap .