Never Felt Loved... Until Now <3: A Loved Series

Chapter 8- Freaking Out

Emry's P.O.V-

After dinner was over we all start heading back to the club, and by now I can hear the music playing loudly, and see a line outside of people wanting to enter. We walk up to the bouncer, and he looks at both Eli and Evan, "Hey boss, Evan, Ladies, how are you all doing tonight. I look over at Sam and mouth "Boss?" She just shakes her head like she doesn't know any more than I do. After Eli and Evan talk to the bouncer some more we all walk into the club, and before I know what is happening Sam is pulling Evan onto the dance floor leaving me and Eli alone. I don't know what to do so I just stand there and before I can look up Eli is grabbing my hand in his, and walking through the throngs of people, towards where he walked out from earlier tonight, some sort of office. I just follow not saying anything, but enjoy the feeling of his hand around mine, and the comparison of his bigger hand to my smaller, yet chubby one. Shaking my head I berate myself for putting myself down again, again another reason why I need to move out and try to be more independent. All so I can try and build up my self-confidence one day and hopefully love who I am.

We walk into what looks like an office, and Eli turns on the lights, and I automatically start looking around. There is no windows in here, but he does have a couple floor lamps to provide plenty of light. The walls are dark grey painted brick, and dark hard wood flooring. Then right by the back wall is a big black desk with a big leather chair behind it; with two black cube style chairs in front of the desk. And right under the desk is a rectangular black and grey rug. I had expected his office to be a mess, well because guys are not always organized. Yet I was pleasantly surprised to see a stack of papers neat on his desk next to a laptop. Two filing cabinets to the right of his desk, and a shelf on the wall with some photos on it.

Before I know what I am doing I am walking towards the photos, and look at the few he has up there. One seems to be him and what I am guessing is his family; looks like he has a younger sister, and brother, and of course his parents. Then there is a picture of a cute pit bull puppy with dark markings playing in some grassy area. The last picture I see on the shelf is of Eli and Evan when looks like they graduated High School both smiling from ear to ear, eyes full of happiness as they hold up their diplomas. I don't even hear Eli walk up behind me until he points to the dog picture, "That's Shadow, I just adopted him a couple months ago. And that picture there is me and my family. That is my mom Joy, dad Rob, My little brother Henry, and my Little sister Jasmine. And then obviously that one is me and Evan, we had just graduated high school and we were so excited to finally start living our own lives." I look over my shoulder and can see the pride, and joy in his eyes as he talks about his loved ones. It makes me think about my family, and how I wished we were closer like we used to be when I was little. Smiling at him, "Your family looks very sweet, I can tell you love them very much." "Yeah I do, what about you? What's your family like?" When he asks that I automatically close my eyes and take a deep breath. I don't want to answer his question, let alone for him to know what my family is like.

Why is he asking me anyways? Why does he care? This is supposed to be a pity date anyways. "You don't want to know, nothing special to talk about. So why did you bring me in here?" I try changing the subject, and hope that he just lets his question drop. He looks at me with curiosity, "Because I wanted to be alone with you, talk to you, and get to know you better. Now why are you avoiding my question about your family?" "Whoa, get to know me better? Why would you want to do that? I mean it isn't like this is a real date or anything."

Eli looks at me like I have gone crazy or something. "This isn't a date? Who said that, I was pretty sure when we set this up as a double date, that this was a date between me and you. And you still haven't answered my question about your family." I am at a loss for words, he thinks this is a real date? Why? "I don't want to talk about my family can you just drop it please? And I thought this was just a pity date, you know you helping your friend and me helping mine. So the both of them can go out together tonight." Anger or hurt I am not sure which seems to flash across Eli's face, "What? Why would this be a pity date Emry? I like you, I asked you out. This is definitely not no pity date, why would you ever think, or be on a pity date? You are a beautiful girl who any guy would be lucky to go out with." There are no words for me to say, for what he just said. I mean he thinks I am beautiful? What is he seeing, he must be blind or something. "What? Okay you must be blind or something I am not beautiful. And I guess I'm sorry you thought this was a date, this isn't to me, I am just here to help Sam out."

I start to walk out the door, when he grabs my wrist and pulls me against his chest. My breath hitches, as he runs his thumb against my cheek again, while putting his other hand against my lower back. I can't think or breathe when he starts talking, "You have no idea how beautiful you are and that is a shame. I have been thinking about you all night, and day waiting to see you again. I couldn't get you out of my head. And I have been waiting all night to kiss you." He leans in and presses his lips to mine and I freeze, then start kissing him back. However I realize what is happening and I start freaking out. I can't breathe, or think straight, but I know I need to leave and now. I pull back and look at a smiling Eli. I turn around shaking my head, "I have to get out of here" Before he can stop me I run out of the office, and through the club packed of people and out the entrance. I run to my car and drive straight home crying feeling lost and so confused.

Authors Note-

Whoa looks like Eli could not defy his feelings for Emry. Yet she freaked out, and is so unsure of how she feels! What is Eli thinking? What is going to happen between the two of them? Only time will tell!!