I'm back and I hope yall missed meeee😚
If you saw those other two chapters that I posted after their date chapter, no you didn't!!! I'm using parts of the chapters but I'm switching up a lot of stuff so yeah.
I don't know if Ima be back consistent with this book so bear with me🙏🏽
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I heard everything must come to an end
Well hopefully the end ain't near
Or for that matter even clear
The only thing that matters is right here
Like the sky, the sun, the waterfalls
I decide when I'm gon' fall
I can't tell you everything I don't know
Oh baby I can't tell you everything I don't know
៚ • twenty eight
៚ • bronx, ny
៚ • 12:00pm
៚ • samaria bryant
"Oh my gosh girl it's been forever," Jaliya exclaimed as we met by the front doors of school.
"It really has!" I exclaimed pulling her into a hug.
"Chick-fil-a?" She asked as we walked out the school.
"You already knowwwww." I replied as we made our way to the train station.
We had a 1 hour free period and then a 30 minute lunch, so we were going to take a short trip to 125th street to get food. That chick-fil-a is such a hot mess and them workers be pissing me but it's the closest chick-fil-a and the food is mad good.
"So what does it feel like to be in a relationship Samaria?" Jaliya asked as we rounded the block.
"Life is full of puppies and butterflies and rainbows, and my life feels like a black romcom from the 2000's," I replied and she side-eyed me.
"I'm just playingggg, I'm getting used to our new dynamic but it's been really nice. I genuinely just feel like I'm dating my best friend but now we kiss and stuff now." I lightly chuckled.
"Because you are just dating your best friend. You both have loved each other heavy for years and now you get to grow your love in a different way. It took y'all forever to realize but I digress."
"Yeah not too much on us though. At least we made it here, that's what matters. But also I realized that I was living in a fantasy world where for some reason I thought having a boyfriend would solve all my problems. Yeah I was really lying to myself, all those romance books got to my head. Only person who could solve all my problems is God, and I'm definitely not as dedicated as I should be."
"Hey don't be too hard on yourself, you've been picking up that Bible more, praying more, it's a start. You don't have to be perfect to go to God. Every little step they you take to grow your relationship with Him matters." Jaliya smiled as the 2 train pulled up.
"I know but it's like I know I can be doing better and making more time for him, but I decide to be ignorant and do other stuff. And every time I do, my life turns to shit-I mean nonsense- but I just keep doing it again because I'm being dumb." I replied as we got on the train and luckily it was pretty empty so we got a double seat.
"We're humans, we do dumb stuff. We just need to remind ourselves why we shouldn't keep doing that dumb stuff. It's all about self control."
"Yeah I do...but enough about this sad stuff. My dad is definitely doing better and taking in the advice he's been given from the therapist. He talks to me more about myself, he doesn't react to Mom's anger as much, and he's been apologizing when he lets his anger get to him."
"How about your mom?"
"She still the same, I stopped caring about if she changes or not. Can't change someone if they don't wanna change."
