She Will Be Loved

Chapter 1:

The summer had run off quickly . . .

It's funny but I could have sworn that I had more time before I had to return to that place of torture, filled with it's gossipers and devils. Now I realized, I only had one week left . . .

I sat on the back porch of my new home, the one Jayden and I now shared and I simply stared out at the setting sun. No matter how much things had changed I still found great comfort in monotony; somehow I knew that that would never change. I thought back to just three months ago . . .it seemed so far off  . . .Just three months ago I was a wreck, fed up of life and ready to give in the first chance I got. It may sound odd but I had my reasons. I couldn't live with my mother any longer.

True to our word Matt did attend the therapy sessions and he was getting better. He didn't wake up screaming anymore and he wasn't so angry. . .

I had slowly become very accustomed to Jayden's family. In some way they were like my own. Jonie had become like a sister to me and she shared even more of her secrets with me. I was actually starting to have a normal life. I had friends and people who cared about me, especially Jayden. Just thinking his name made me smile, by now it had become a reflex and he knew it. Just what he needed, an ego boost because it definitely wasn't soaring through the sky already. But I guess it was fine because I had come to realize just how much I loved him. That thought made me smile too. A couple months ago if anyone had asked me I would have told them that there was no such thing.

 The sudden movement in my hands made me drop my eyes. Emi was trying to get into a more comfortable position. I ran my fingers through her hair as I thought back again. She had changed too, her hair was no longer a strawberry blonde but had settled on brunette like my own. I thought back to just how torn I was when I thought she was dead. Never before had I felt so empty, so insignificant. The news of her death was my breaking point . . .She was my world and just the thought of losing her was enough to kill me and if it was abit further back I would have thought 'too bad it didn't'. I was a slightly different person now, my outlook on life had taken on a more optimistic look. Though I wouldn't allow myself to get carried away. Certain things would simply never change.

"Hey gorgeous."

I turned with a smile and watched as Jayden entered the back porch. He smiled at me then down at Emi. Her big brown eyes looked up at him playfully as she began swinging in my lap. 

"Is Matt still over at the twins'?" I asked. He nodded as he took a seat next to me on the swing chair. He wrapped his arm around me, sighed then turned to me with that breath taking smile of his. "What?" I asked shyly, he was giving me a certain look. His smile widened.

"I'm just admiring the view."

I couldn't help but smile as I felt myself blush. Why did he always know what to say? Now it was so hard to believe that I had tried to pushing him away at one point. What had I been thinking . . .?

"You know she can't wait for school." I said, now looking down at Emi who was preoccupied with a lock of my hair. She was now three which mean that she would have to begin the mundane ritual of going to school. I could only hope that she would enjoy it more than I did and that life wouldn't be as cruel to her . . .

Jayden shook his head in fake disappointment as he looked down at her. "You won't feel like that for very long, trust me."

"Want school." She said with a smile.

"Fine have it your way, just remember, you've got  a whole 14 years ahead of you. What do you have to say to that?"

She giggled the way she usually did when she didn't understand then she said, "Want school." Jayden sighed and hung his head in defeat.