My Life With BIGBANG

Chapter 20: Love...Life

In the years I have lived, I have learned a lot of things.

That life is unfair.

Life is messed up;

It's complicated.

But it takes courage and determination to make it right.

Life is too short, so live a life with no regrets.

If in the process you commit mistakes, learn from it..

Mistakes molds us to a better person.

as what 'Ralph Waldo Emerson' once quoted, "all life is an experiment. the more experiment you make, the better."

In love, it's better to love than to not have loved at all.

I did love Youngbae...and Jiyong as well. maybe...

Love is like luck.

You have to go all the way to find it.

I just hope they both found it.

moments flashed back in my mind...

my times with Youngbae... Jiyong's face... TOP... Seungri... Daesung...

Leaving them was hard; it was like a suicide... But like what they always say, if you love someone, set them free, if it comes back, then they are yours..if not, then you're not meant to be...

For a moment there...

I DIED.

Am I dead?

Did I die?

Silly you...

If I was dead, then who else will be telling you my story now?

I survived the I-almost-died accident.

The car saw me and avoided me in time.

The driver even scolded me.

I died.

Leaving the guy I loved and cared for was like a suicide...

I guess, 10 years have passed and I'm 34 years old still single.

In my determination, I tried to study psychology for 4 years.

Until one day, my talent was discovered during a school play. at the age of 27, I became a teacher.

I've been living in L.A. since then.

This place has so much memories that I can't just let go.

Here, I became a teacher and a part-time shrink.

I owned a 2-story studio, a dance studio and a recording booth.

I thank the boys for giving me the inspiration for this.

From time to time, I would look up the internet for big bang updates.

After 15 years being together, they disbanded.

They held their last 'farewell' concert in seoul and of course I attended.

I blended in with the crowd.

TOP pursued his acting career, and guess what? he's married.

Seungri, who's in a relationship for 4 years, became a teacher/choreographer.

His school was the most popular Artist/dance school in korea.

Daesung, who is still in a relationship with his long-time girlfriend and fiancee joined the opera and from time to time he would act in television.