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Chapter 10

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I screamed it all out. It was my one of my only means of release in these situations. I didn't even know how long I was screaming for. A minute? Two? Who knew. It was only when I felt myself being shaken that I realized what was happening. But I just couldn't shake off my panicked state just yet.

Its okay baby girl, come back to me.

I knew the voice but yet, I couldn't respond.

I felt trapped as the memories of my past bombarded me once again in waves. Continuously.

I'm sorry, I said to the voice.

Why are you sorry dear?

I'm a killer.

What are you talking about Elly?

Another wave of horrifying memories hit me and I forced myself to continue.

If I never existed, people would have never gotten hurt.

Open your eyes Elly. Please stop talking like this, the voice pleaded. But I continued.

If I had died with my parents, if I hadn't met Blaez, then everything wouldn't be the way it was, I responded.

Elliott, you know that's not your fault-

It is! From the moment I joined the pack Blaez began harming and killing even more people. Just to see my reaction! Just to see me break. Little by little. Until I was nothing but a shell. He and his men would physically and mentally abuse me until I became totally numb. Until I had nothing to live for, I rambled. I just needed to get it off of my chest.

Blaez. . . he decided that he wanted a permanent location for his. . . pack. He found the Moonshine pack. He attacked it a-and held their Alpha and Luna. H-he gave me a c-choice, I started shaking violently.

I had to choose. He had the Alpha and a little girl on either side of him.

He said I had to choose w-who was gonna d-die.

I didn't choose fast enough. . . a-and he killed both of them.

I killed their Alpha.

I killed Marley's mate.

I know that love. . . But there was nothing you could have don-

There was. I should just asked him to kill me. Then all of this would have never happened.

Enough Elliott. . . Even though all of these things happened. . . I-its not your fault! no one blames you for it-

They all do! Everyone does! Even though some of them won't show it. They still do. Even after all these years. . . they still hate me.

I don't, the voice said and I felt a small calmness flow through me. The memories disappeared and my trembling stopped.

Open your eyes Elly.

I slowly peeled my eyes open to see a slightly worried Marley.

"I'm sorry that I yelled before. Claire just kinda lost it a bit. I guess I really need to get her wolfy temper checked out huh?" She laughed awardly but I didn't care. I quickly wrapped my arms around her, thankful that she existed. "I'm sorry!" I cried.

"I know I know. I'm sorry too. I shouldn't have yelled."

"I just- I . . . I'm sorry!"

"Okay you seriously have to stop apologizing," she groaned.

"Sorry."

"No, you seriously have to stop. I will literally tickle you to death if you don't" I didn't say another word because I knew she was serious.

She pulled away from me, then raised my shirt up a bit, scanning the bruises on my stomach and also my arms and face.

"Okay! Well let's get you patched up, shall we?" She suddenly stood up and began walking over to the kitchen to where I put the bandages.

"Wait no!" I practically yelled.

"What? What's wrong?" She quickly asked.

"There's not enough. . ." I trailed off.
She looked at the roll of bandages then looked at me. "I don't understand. There's more than enough here for you," she said, sounding confused.

"Then there won't be enough for Deimos tomorrow-" I started to blush as a mischievous grin slowly formed on her face as she walked back over to me. 

"Oh. . . how could I forget. . . I'm sure you can't wait to wrap those bandages all. Over. His. Body. Tomorrow", she winked and my face was practically glowing red in the dimly lit room. "Marley!" I squealed as she began trailing her hands up and down my body for dramatic effect while wiggling her eyebrows.

After I calmed down, she raised my shirt back up and let out a slow sigh. "U sure you don't want to wrap these up?" She asked sounding truly concerned. I shook my head and she suddenly sprang up suddenly like a crazy person.

"Okay! Well its time for bed then. I'm in the kitchen tomorrow so your gonna have to take care of yourself, especially around Blaez and his goons. Okay?" She asked, sounding serious. I nodded then stood up and slowly made my way to my bedroom.
"Oh and sleep on the bed this time!", she called from in the kitchen. I grunted in acknowledgement as I walked into my room then slowly closed the door. 

I looked at my bed (which was the only thing in the room. Well, other than the broken mirror and drawer) and plopped down onto it noisily so that Marley could hear it. I waited for Marley to enter her room next door, and once the house was quiet again I slowly came off the bed and sat in the corner of the room to think about my plans for tomorrow. I didn't like sleeping on the bed. I always got nightmares.

I Brought my knees up to my chest and thought about the pros and cons that tomorrow could bring. 'Well, at least we found our mate' she shrugged sleepily and I nodded in agreement of her statement.

"You're right I guess", I yawned as I rocked myself back and forth to try and shake off my drowsy ness but to avail. My eyes soon felt heavy and I slowly gave in to the darkness that swirled around me and I fell into a deep sleep.

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