When Sqampy Began (1/4)

They Think I'm Fucking Perfect

Sqaishey POV:

I wake up next to Squid. Oh right. Me and Stampy broke up. And it's all my fault.

There is pouring rain outside. It's dark and black, kinda like how I'm feeling right now.

"Morning ducky." Squid says. Instead of Stampy calling me ducky, Squid is. My heart melts, and I don't know why.

I still love Stampy.

"Morning nugget." I say. He can call me ducky now, and I call him nugget. God, we are such noodle brains.

"Hey, I noticed last night you didn't have your Simba plush." He said. Oh crap.

Please don't tell me I left it in his apartment. That would be super awkward to go and have to see them again.

"Oh shit." Life is really fucked up. By now, I think everyone can agree with me.

"Do you want to go get it?" He ask. "Or I can text him to bring it here?" I like option two better.

"Text him please." I whisper.

"You know, he used to think you were perfect." He tells me. Yeah, no dur you dumb fuck.

"Everyone does. When I was in middle school a girl named Jasenya would physically and verbally abuse me. She calls me crybaby when no one is around. And what did my best friend do? Be bestie bestie with her."

I'm using some of my personal experience into this.

"Is perfect being bullied?" I ask him. He shakes his head, signaling that he means no.

"Is your dad cheating on your mom perfect?" I start to cry. "I tell everyone my parents died when really..." I cut myself off with my tears.

"When really, only my dad is alive. He is a horrible person, he goes by the name of Lewis." Lewis needs to go die in a hole.

"He... He." I start to sob into Squid's shoulder. I feel like such a baby, crying into someone's arm. But, I need to let my emotions out.

"He killed my mom so she wouldn't find out he was cheating!"

I start to sob and sob and sob.

"My brother Andy was on drugs and, he was always smoking. He had marijuana hidden in his room."

My cries and sobs were coming out uncontrollably.

"My mom, when she was alive was an alcoholic. When I was born, the first thing she did was light a cigarette."

"I didn't have much support from my parents growing up!"

Maybe, some people aren't cut out for life.

"Tell me Squid! Is that perfect?!" I yell whilst sobbing. I'm not fucking perfect yet everyone thinks I am.

"I haven't thought about it in a while because some people impacted my lives so much."

"Don't worry Sqaish. Who impacted your life so much that you haven't been thinking about all of this pain?" Squid ask.

Now, do I lie or tell the truth.

"It was all of the MAC. You, Stampy, Netty, Tom, and Rosie." I say. I decided to tell him the truth. He deserves to know.

"I'll tell Stampy to come." I whisper.

I get my phone and start to text him.

🐥- Sqaishey
🐱-Stampy

🐥- Okay. This is going to be awkward but, I left my Simba plush at your apartment...