Torn

Chapter 14

There's a knock at his door as the smoke clears from his apartment.
"Fin? What are you doing here?" Carisi asks.
"I was coming to give you a card we all signed at the precinct to show our empathy for Amanda."
"Thank you." He throws the card next to the broken glass on the coffee table where he shot the picture.
"What happened here?"
"Nothing." Sonny murmurs, putting his gun down.
"Alright smart guy." Fin chuckles, opening up Sonny's door and walking out. He sighs.
"I should have committed suicide while I could." He says aloud to himself, looking at the empty gun. He pulls out his phone and dials Olivia's number.
"I'm ready to come clean. Can you stop by my place?" She exhales and hangs up. He hides his anxieties and jitters around until he hears the knock at his door.
"What did you do to him?"
"Sarge, I just want you to know that this job means the world to me. But it's time that I pay for what I did." She nods, ready for him to go on.
"I got so jealous that Rafael was stealing Amanda from me." He swallows his fear. "When he was over here, I-" he remembers the tragic day.

"Sonny?" Barba asked, knocking on his apartment door. He rolls his eyes and opens the door.
"Can you understand that Amanda is mine? She doesn't want you anymore. You need to know that you are the one causing her horrid flashbacks, Carisi! You are."
"She told me that you were, Rafael! I didn't ask for you to come barging into my apartment-"
"I'll tell Olivia about what you did." Sonny gasped.
"Don't you dare." He pulled his phone out. "If you're going to, at least let me get you a drink." Barba cheerfully agreed. Sonny poured him a mug of coffee, and opened up the cabinet. Looking over his shoulder stealthily, he grabbed the Rohypnol powder from the cabinet and mixed it into his coffee. He hands it to Barba, and he drinks it. Carisi turns around and hears Barba hit the floor. He smiles evilly and picks Barba up, throwing him over his shoulder and putting him into the backseat of his car. Driving quickly, by dark, he reaches Buffalo. He finds a trash can under a bridge and dumps Barba. He calls Olivia.
"Hey Sarge. I won't be able to make it to work tomorrow."
"Okay, Carisi." He gets back into his car and drives the long way back to Manhattan.

"I-I drugged him and dropped him at the Buffalo border. Who knows if he is still there. The jealousy got the best of me and I couldn't help it."
"Dominick Carisi! You are fired. I can't believe you would do this! How could we have trusted you with any victims?"
"Because those victims weren't dating Amanda." Olivia gets up in an angry rage. He follows her.
"No, Sonny. You're going to the precinct." She pushes him up against the door and puts handcuffs on him.
"You have the right to remain silent-"
***
Buffalo, NY

"We tracked his cell phone." Olivia says aloud to Fin. "He's in this hotel." They look up. They walk in and consult the front desk.
"Hi, NYPD. We are looking for Rafael Barba."
"Room 234." They rush to the second floor and kick his door open. He is sitting shirtless on the bed, watching TV. And next to him, a bombshell blonde in her bra and panties. The blonde gets up, hiding her face.
"Wait a minute." Fin steps in, and pulls the pillow from the blonde's face.
"No- don't." Barba says aloud.

"Amanda?"