Confused and Guilty
"Can I be that one person?"
Fluttering my eyes open, I heard my favorite sound echoing in my mind like a dream. His voice. They were right, you wouldn't understand how much you'll miss their voice until you realize how long it will be until I hear it again.
"The one that's constantly on your mind. The one person you would always reply fast to. The one your friends hear about every day of our lives. The one you check up on every now and then just to see how my day was going. The one that makes your day, the one you'd do anything for. The one you smile non stop about. The one you can be your complete self around. The person you love, the person you love more than anything."
Sean's voice kept on repeating in my mind. Damn, his voice. His voice in my mind, it did interesting things to me. It gave me butterflies, curved my back, and parted my lips. I felt lazy and feline, and he wasn't even in the room. He wasn't even with me.
Closing my eyes, I hear his voice once more. I still remember the sound of his voice that night. And suddenly, all feels right with the world again. I miss the sound of his voice being the last thing I hear at night and the first thing I hear when I wake up. I don't even think someone will ever understand what his voice does to me.
Meeting him was like listening to a song for the first time and knowing it would be my favorite. And I still, and will keep on repeating the things he said to me in my head, now that everything's different.
Today was a Saturday, and it means I have no classes for me to rest and just slack off. I went back to bed, and checked my phone.
Fuck, I remember I have a meet up with Maddie today when she asked me to go and meet her somewhere the other day.
Someone walked behind me. "Hey Elle." Maddie smiled and I was surprised. She greeted me right after the rehearsals and when Abby exited the studio. I suddenly had this feeling that she was waiting for me.
Smiling a bit, I sat and went back to wipe all my sweat away as Kalani, Nia, Kendall, and Brynn waved goodbye at me. "Hi, Maddie." I said and greeted her in the most civil manner I could. I was still a bit uncomfortable and tensed around her. I mean, because of the whole case of her and Romeo.
Don't get me wrong. There are some people that we have to keep distance. But it's not because we hate them or don't like them, but it's because it's the best thing to do. Especially when that person caused you something.
"Are you free today?" She asked and I stopped fixing my things.
Shaking my head no, I answered. "Sorry, I still have more dance classes." I said.
She stopped. "Oh." Was all she answered and nodded thoughtfully. So, she really was waiting for me. "Well then, are you free tomorrow around two o'clock in the afternoon? Can we meet somewhere?" She asked again.
Thinking bout my agenda ahead, I twitched my lips. "I don't think so." I muttered. "Why not Saturday? I don't think I have any classes nor errands that day anyway." I replied.
"Great!" She smiled. "I was thinking Starbucks, downtown. By around eleven thirty in the morning, instead?" She asked and I nodded.
"Yeah, sure." I looked at her. "But do you mind if I ask why you suddenly wanted to meet me out of nowhere?" She was taken a back, and I didn't mean to sass on her though. "Just so I know." I added and carefully asked.
"I just need to talk with you, that's all." She shyly replied.
"Okay." I bit my lip. "Well I think it's settled then." I said and smiled awkwardly and excused myself to leave the studio as I snatched my dance bag away from the bench.
