Before I die(A Harry Styles Fanfiction)

Chapter 10

Just thought it was time too for a little author's note :D Be sure to check out Another world,written by the awesome writer I dedicated this chapter to! :) Now go on with this story :)

**Harry's P.O.V**

I woke up in my bed, while someone was softly kissing my lips. I slowly opened my eyes and looked around. Rose was laying in my bed next to me. She looked at me and kissed me. "Morning, beautiful" she whispered in my ear and climbed on me. "So what are we going to do today, handsome?" she asked and started playing with my hair. "We?" I asked confused. "Yeah, don't be silly, baby." "So cinema, staying at home repeating our last night or telling the paparazzi about us?" she asked, still smiling. Maybe some people don't know this yet but I get angry really fast. And if it's something really bad I can't control myself. I could feel the anger in my body. "You know what I'm for? Repeating last night" She said and started kissing me. She started touching my body. "Stop Rose. What are you talking about? Telling about us?" I pushed Rose off of me. She looked at me surprised. She put on her nightdress. She took some steps around the room. "I think that after our night we can have something. I mean this night was special. Didn't you feel that? "Look Rose, I don't want to hurt you, but this night was nothing for me, just a normal one night stand. And I think that you should feel the same because I know that you have a lot of boys in your bed." I said and gave her a weak smile. "But this is something else, Harry." She sat on the bed and took my hand. "We are not together" I said a bit slower now. "I don't think so, Harry. I think it's the best for us, to be together. Trust me you don't know what I’m capable of." She said and went to the table to put on some mascara. "This is not normal and you are not normal, Rose" I said and went out of the room in the kitchen. I could hear Rose yelling from the bedroom "Don't say I didn't warned you!" I could hear her laughing. Gosh I hate this girl so much, how could I sleep with her. Well I guess I was so angry because of Bella and Ethan that I just lost the control of myself. "Who cares, I whispered to myself" I mean what can a girl like her do to me? I think that the best thing to do right now is to ignore her. But actually this is my house and what's she's doing in here? And where did she get the key? Louis? I could hear someone walking down the stairs. Of course It was Rose. "Rose, you know you’re kind off here all the time. And this apartment is not yours and well, I don't want you here all the time. So could you just go, I mean I can call the cops?" "Are you kicking me out? You are funny. But actually if you won't stay with me, I will destroy your career!" She said and gave me that look that she can really do it. "Rose, I think you watch movies too much" I said and laughed at her. She didn't said a thing, she just took her phone and started laughing. "What are you laughing at?" I asked. "Wait a minute…and send." She looked at me and showed me her phone. There was a picture of me and Rose having sex. In the middle of sex. "How could you do that? I mean who was filming this" "Nobody I just put the camera there and well I send it to the BCC radio" She said and laughed at me. She showed me her photo one more time. It was written: sent at 22.7.2013 at 9.am" . "See I am not lying" "How could you do that, if this comes out how I had sex...omg, Rose...you're just…!" "Pefect...I know "She laughed at me. She came to me and whispered "See, I can destroy your career with just one sms, so I give you one chance. Be with me?" she said and smiled at me. "Never in a million years" I sad and looked at her. She was angry but her eyes were red too. "Okay...it's your decision" She took the phone and tipped a number. She was quiet for a while and than she started talking: "Hello is this the BCC radio? Oh good yes I send you that picture, yes we are dating…yeah sure" she said and hung up. Now I'm pissed . I pushed Rose against the wall. "What is wrong with you?" I screamed at her. "I thought that you love me, and that you wouldn’t do that!" I said. "Well you didn't want to be together with me!" She said and smiled. "And trust me, I can do everything…so don't push me in this!" "Okay you are really nuts...I mean all this because a boy doesn’t want to be with you?!" I screamed at her. Yeah it's true, I care a lot about what the fans, family, paparazzi thinks of me. And now the pictures were everywhere. "Rose, I don't love you. Why are you pushing me in this?" I said one more time "Because I know what you feel for Bella, and she won't get you. Not this time. It's me or her. And I will get you!" She reminded me of Bella. I couldn’t take it anymore...the anger just went out of me. I hit in the wall right next to Roses face. My hand was bleeding a bit, and there was a huge hole in the wall. Rose was shaking, she didn't knew what to do. She took my hand. "If you will be with me, I won’t do anything" I just ignored her. "Is everything alright?" She was still pushing in me. "No, nothing is alright, you ruined everything!" I said and looked at her angrily. "Now please get the hell out of here" I said and made a step back so she could go. She was to scared so she just went out of the apartment. I couldn’t take it anymore. I fell on the ground and started crying. I was crying so hard. I was so angry and hurt after all what happened. The pain in my hand and in my heart was too painful. I was crying so hard. I don't even care what anybody thinks of me, I mean a guy crying...I don't care I have to let my feelings somehow out of me. I was still laying on the floor. I was slowly breathing and stopped crying. I fell asleep on the floor. I wasn't sleeping for a long time. A knock on the door interrupted me. I knew it was Rose. I opened the door. "I'm really not in the mood…" I tried to say that, but I stopped when I saw Ethan standing outside. He was very close to me and he was acting like he's something better. That nothing or nobody is better than him. "Can I come in?" He asked politely. I nodded and made some steps back so he could come in. "He looked around the apartment and just stood there. "Now I see why Rose wants to be here all the time." he said and winked at me. I was still quiet. I was just breathing and trying not punching him right in the face. "Why do you have red eyes, Harold?" He asked and laughed at me. I don't have the energy to fight with him. "Can you just leave the apartment?" I asked as friendly as I could. "Okay...I just came to see If you are still alive" He said and laughed at me. He slowly went to the door. "Thank's for your visit" I said and rolled with my eyes. "I never wanted to ask Bella to be my girlfriend, but you don't want to know that, right" He said and opened the door. "No, wait. What? So you don't love her?" "I do, not as much as you do I guess. I wanted to wait for a month or something to ask her, but than I saw you and I just had to do it. I wanted to make you jealous! He said and laughed. "And it worked… "he continued. "You know all this is a game...I mean Rose never loved you, she just want's your money and she hates Bella, and I want Bella...but in my bed...I'm going to stay with her so long until I get this...I wont push!" He said and looked at me seriously. "You never loved her, asshole" I said and pushed him a bit. " I did and I do but just a little…okay I really love her, but I still want sex." he laughed. "But if you say something to her, I swear to God, I will kill you with my bloody hands" He said and looked at me with a cold face. He was there for a while but then he went trough of the door. I thought he really went but he came back "Oh I forgot don't touch, speak, dream, think about her, because actually I like her a lot maybe it's going to be love, and I don't want to blame myself because I didn't get sex." he said and smiled at me like nothing happened. I need some fresh air. I went out, even if it was raining...I went in the park and sat on a bench. I was all wet but I didn't care, what could be worst than this. I was sitting there, slowly breathing. Actually I lost Bella for ever. Maybe Ethan really loves her. I don't know, what if he only wants sex? Will they ever break up? And actually Rose is with me just because of my money and the revenge to Bella. I think I should give up. What if I say something to Bella about our conversation with Ethan. No, he could kill me and Bella wouldn't belive me. Rose would do anything to keep me. And fans saw the pictures. My life is a zero. Why do I live? I started breathing faster. I was quiet for 5 minutes just listening to rain. "I know what I will do" I said to myself. When I came back in the apartment the lights were on. I knew Rose is here. I went in the bedroom and saw her laying on the bed."Omg, Harry...are you okay? I was so worried!" She said and touched my cheek. "You're hot...are you sick?" She asked. Well not from the rain, from the pain. "Yes," I said quickly and looked at the floor. "I knew it...common lay here...I will make you some tea" she said and looked at me worried. "No ,Rose. It's not that" "I don't understand" she said, and looked confused. "Yes, I will be together with you". She needed some time to realize what I just said. She started smiling and hugging me. I put my head in to her shoulder. I could feel a tear on my face and other tears in my eyes. Like I said I know what I will do. It's a new start, even though with the wrong person.