Airplanes ☼ lrh

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song//White Blood-Oh Wonder
8:15 PM

luke: still

luke: can't

luke: bleieve

luke: we're

luke: gonna

luke: meet

aria: you ducked up so hard on spelling believe omg you dork

luke: i know but i don't know how it happened

luke: dUCKED

aria: you switched some letters

luke; hey

aria: EVERYBODY

aria: WE DONT HAVE TO LIVE THIS WAY

luke: actually, uh

luke: WE CAN ALL GET ESOME

luke: Im going to New York in three months

aria: FUCK THATS SO CLOSE TO WHERE I LIVE YEYSYEYSYEYSYEYSYEYEYEYYS

luke: I KNOW IM IFANSASJFCKLSANJWFAS

aria: wait 3 months

luke: 3 months

aria: ...I'm going to Florida in three months

luke: NO HSUT UP

luke:YOURE NOT GOING

aria: i am

aria: I'm sorry.

aria: I'm going to go see my mom again and i spent at least a year saving up to go.   luke I understand why you'd be upset but I have to go. please don't be mad

aria:Im going to disnEY  WORLD

luke: AERENT YOU U[SET WE'RE NEEOT GOING TO MEET

aria: calm yourself

aria: we will one day

aria: it will come eventually

aria: I'd be more even upset if I never saw my mom again for another 14 years.

aria: we can facetime I can't even text her because she told my sister not to give me her number

aria: BUT HOLY SHIT DO I WISH IT WASnt IN THREE MONTHS

luke: you're right bUT ME TOO

luke: i love you babe, night

aria: its only like 7 PM

luke: im sleeping to get rid of the pain

aria: fuck that was deep

luke: ;-)

aria: go to sleep

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12:00 am

luke: still can't sleep

aria: i'm awake if you want to talk or rant about me.

luke: I don't have to rant

aria: luke I care about you so sososososoooooooooooo much you don't even understand. 

aria: everytime you ever tweeted something sad id reply with you can DM me whenever,  i just want to know you're okay. luke you can talk shit about me and i wouldn't care.  that's how much i want you to just be happy and if you're upset right now i'm super sorry.  i know you have something on your mind.  i just want you to tell me everything bad your thinking.

luke wasn't sensitive.  he didn't want people to think he was.  he didn't want to admit that he was sensitive in anyway at all.   inside him he felt feelings he could only express with bright colors.  reds, oranges, yellows.  art had to simply speak his feeling for him.  no one ever understood that so he simply stopped acting like he felt anything.

luke: i am okay, swear

aria: luke no you're not.  i hate to act like I know what you're feeling, people do it to me all the time but I know you're not okay.  tell me please

being a very quiet person, aria never liked to when people pressured out her feelings.  she finally realized while people kept constantly pushing her to admit the supply of anger and hurt bottled up in her that continuously made her head hurt and her stomach knot.  she understood that if you care about someone more than you care for yourself, you don't want them to feel what you've felt, they don't deserve it.

in fact, it's the last thing they'd ever deserve.

aria: okay luke don't tell me yet. im telling you it's all so much fucking better when someone else knows.

aria:  I don't know if it's cause you don't trust me enough. that's totally fine.  please just tell someone. 

luke: i understand that you want to see you're mom. trust me that's not the reason i'm upset. it's just management that has been pissing me off a lot recently.  it's kind of personal.

aria:  okay, just remember whatever they're making you do or think will be over soon, don't worry to much about it. it just makes everything way worse

luke:  i need you right here next to me. i am so lucky i had the chance to send you a nude.

aria: try to go to sleep, love you

love you and i love you have to different meanings rolled through luke's mind for a bit.

aria cared for luke, but didn't love him yet.  that was something he needed to change.

by the end of the conversation luke could even keep his eyes open anymore.  even though no information was released, he felt a little more calm and collected. that's all he needed.

aria stayed up for a few more hours wondering if he was okay and going on wattpad and tumblr.  she fell asleep watching orange is the new black, slowly forgetting about luke's problem.