Don't Touch Me (GL) [Completed]

Chapter 27

"Let me go, Dad!"

"No!"

Marahas na itinulak ako ni Dad nang makapasok dito sa sariling kwarto, bumagsak ako sa kama at halos masubsob sa puwersa ng pagkakatulak no'n Napalingon ako sa kanya at kita sa expression nito ang disgusto sa nalaman, I can't help herself but to feel bad, somehow.

I didn't regret na mag-out sa kanila. Heck, I don't even regret loving Star from the very start.

"Ano bang pumasok diyan sa isip mo, Shannelle? You do know that you are committing a sin! So, why?" Bakas ang pagtataka at galit sa boses niya.

"I love her." ang natatanging sagot ko. Iyon lang naman ang maibibigay kong dahilan. I love Star whether it's a sin or not. Love is not all about what is right or wrong. Gasgas na ang katagang iyon pero totoo.

"Pero mali! Alam mong mali." Matigas na sabi ng ama ko, emphasizing how wrong it is to be sexually attracted with the same gender.

Tila pumintig ang isang ugat ko sa narinig. Matigas na hinarap ko siya, hindi ko mapigilang magkaramdam ng galit at pagkadismaya at kung anu-ano pang emosyon dahil sa naririnig. "Mali? Do you even hear yourself, Dad?" I laughed bitterly, my voice cracking even if I don't want to. Napaiyak ako. Hindi ko gusto maging ganito pero hindi ko na kayang pigilan lahat ng nararamdaman ko. Star's right, I cry so easily. "Do you know how wrong it is na dinidiktahan mo ako? Do you know how selfish you are when you didn't even consider my feelings nang mag-decide ka? For what...business?"

"I just want—"

I waved my hand dismissingly, obviously telling na hindi pa ako tapos magsalita. "Mahal kita, Dad. I know, and I can't deny, you've been a good father to me. You spoiled me sometimes, kapag may gusto ako binibigay mo, you give time to bond with me basta kaya mo. And I appreciated it all. But Dad, you know what my problem is?" Saglit akong tumahimik para punasan ang luha."When it's all about business, you are stoic and hard, you won't consider what I feel. See? You even dared to hook me up with someone I don't even like from the start."

Natahimik siya at hindi nakasagot, na para bang na-trap na ito sa malalim na pag-iisip. My father kept his expression hard...as always. "All I want is the best for you."

"But you're giving me the worst." I simply replied.

Napatingin siya sa braso ko kaya maging ako ay napatingin. That's when I noticed the bruise appearing on my skin. I stared at him and caught him gulped, I saw regret in my father's eyes for unintentionally hurting me.

"Ayoko kay Keith. Tell me all you want, you can judge me, hit me, or anything. You can tell me how wrong it is pero hindi ko iiwan si Star. I love her. When I'm with her, everything feels so right." I said, I almost smiled when an image of my beloved girlfriend flashed in my head. Just by the mere thought of Star is making me feel better. "How can love be so wrong, Dad?"

"This is just a phase..."

"Hindi 'to phase lang. I am not even a lesbian." I told him. God, I don't even know how to explain that I only feel this way with Star. "I just came to love her more than what you canimagine. I love her just like how you love my Mom, your wife."

"Pero mali—"

"Just please stop thinking about it!" Napasigaw na ako sa sobrang frustration na nararamdaman. Damn! "Kailan pa naging mali makaramdam ng ganito? Please, hear me out. Please..."

Napahilamos si Dad sa sariling mukha. Makalipas ang ilang minuto ay lumipat siya at naupo sa tabi ko. Mabagal at maingat niyang iniangat ang kamay, hanggang sa pinatong niya iyon sa balikat ko bago ako marahang niyakap na para bang masasaktan ako anytime. Niyakap ko siya ng mahigpit.