Forever and Always ✔️

Chapter forty seven - Zack.

Day one.

Sitting at home all day thinking about her was not at all fun for me. Sure, I loved thinking about her beautiful eyes, her cute fringe that fell perfectly across her forehead and her amazing smile. But the reason why was not fun for me because we were not okay.

Our relationship was strained from the lies, the past and most of all, the hurt. How could someone mean so much to me? I thought Molly meant everything to me until one day, I woke up and fell out of love with her just like that with no explanation. Was it because she was Grayson's girlfriend? Probably but, how did you even fall out of love with someone?

It just wasn't there anymore.

I heard a faint knock on my bedroom door, I grunted and the door slowly opened revealing my mother. I got all my hopes up because I thought it was her, telling me that she came back and how much she wanted to be with me. But as always, my hope was buried into the ground.

"Sweetie, is everything okay?" My mother Xmas in and closed my bedroom door, blocking the sound of the TV that my brother was currently watching.

I sighed, looking up at the ceiling. I wondered if she read my letter, I wonder if she was keeping it close to her. "Fine," was all I manage to say but I was not that stupid, my mother was a trained therapist, she always knew when something was wrong. "Okay, I'm lying."

She sat gently at the end of my bed. "I know." I wanted to laugh, better yet, I wanted to cry. "So, are you going to tell me what's bothering you or am I going to have to go all therapist like on you?"

I forced myself to sit up and I stared at my mother with her caring like eyes and she knew that the information would come out one way or another. "It's her."

Firstly, she gave me a confused look and then it clicked. "Penelope?"

I didn't want to say her name; if I did then it would all come flooding back and drown me. I nodded and realized that I couldn't not tell my mom everything, she would probably have the best advice for me. "What did you do this time?"

"What makes you think I was the one who did something?" I didn't exactly tell mom about Molly and I would prefer it if I didn't talk about my sex life with my mother.

"Because," she sighed, "I know you and you've broken hearts before."

Did I ever mention that my mom was really good at her job? Well, she was the best. "It wasn't exactly like that. Long story short, I ruined Gray's trust which meant that I ruined Penelope's trust and then she ruined my trust."

"What did she do that ruined your trust?" She asked, her eyes seeing through mine like it was another dimension. "Please don't tell me she went to the party you went to last night." I stayed silent with a simple nod. "And she got drunk?"

I nodded again, remembering it all but it was such a blur. "She had given up, mom."

"Well, where is she now?"

"Rehab." I said flatly, not too sure when she was coming back. If she was coming back. "She went there yesterday, I saw her before she left. She just left, I don't know if she's ever going to come back to me. She's a different person to me now and I'm in love with her so bad it hurts."

My mother sighed a long and tiring one, she had worked with Penelope for a while so she probably knew her more than I do. "Zack, I know it hurts but rehab isn't there to change people, it's to change their bad habits and to make them a better person. She'll come back and she'll want you as much as you want her but she also needs space as well. She's been through a lot and going to rehab a second time must be devastating because she's getting pushed back a step each time but I can tell you this now," she smiled at me with a hint of sadness in her eyes, "she wouldn't have gone to rehab if she didn't want to try, she's making up for what she did and she's becoming a better person each day she's in there and she'll love you even more when she comes out because she misses you and she wants to be with you no matter what."