Yoongi's Music [SUGA]

Music #49

Yoongi’s Music
Music #49

Suga’s POV:

I decided to give my whole heart to Sujin. And that’s what I’m trying to do now.

Si Sujin na ang mamahalin ko.

Si Sujin na ang pipiliin ko.

Si Sujin na ang magmamay-ari sa akin.

It’s like a line in a bible which I keep on repeating into my head to save me from my miseries.

It’s like a verse of a song which I keep on mumbling so that I could memorise it by the heart.

It's like a religion that I needed to follow to save me from hell.

Pero...

Pero...

“Min Yoongi...can we start all over again? Sana maging magkaibigan parin tayo”

But why does the face of that girl kept on flashing into my mind every now and then?

And why does my heart aches a little sa tuwing naalala ko ang mga matatamis na ngiti na ibinigay nya sa akin kahapon?

Bakit masakit?

Bakit ako nasasaktan?

Puta. Ayoko na.

That girl is really having fun in playing with my feelings.

Kung kailan nag-decide na akong mag-let go ay saka naman sya babalik sa dati. Saka naman nya ipaparamdam sa akin na baka nga...na baka nga may pag-asa pa kaming dalawa.

How is it so easy for her to make me feel like this?

How is it so easy for her to ruin everything that I already did just to forget her?

Nakakaputa lang ang feeling na gusto ko na syang kalimutan pero heto ako ngayon at parang gago na iniisip parin ang mga ngiti na ibinigay nya sa akin kahapon.

And what’s that embrace supposed to mean? Gusto na ba talaga nya akong mabaliw ha?

Damn you Park Yuseon.

Are you really having fun in torturing me like this?

It’s like she’s playing cards and she knows how to play her cards well. While I’m blindingly picking up every cards that I needed to choose in order to survive the game. Pero kahit anong gawin ko, kahit anong pilit ko, ay lagi parin akong lumalabas na talunan. Yes, when it comes to her, I can’t defend myself.

I can’t defend myself from hurting too much and that literally sucks.

Every relationship has its own ending.

Pero bakit...hindi ako masaya sa kinahantungan ng relasyon naming dalawa?

Its like my heart is yearning for more...pero ang nakakagago sa sitwasyon ko ngayon ay hindi ko alam kung ano yun.

Marahas nalang akong napahinga ng malalim habang nakahiga parin ako sa kama ko noong umagang iyon.

The light of the morning is already hitting my face pero wala akong gana na gumalaw ngayon.

Pakiramdam ko ay nawalan ako ng ganang gumawa ng kahit ano.

At ang nakakaputang-ina sa sitwasyon ko ngayon ay hindi maalis-alis sa isipan ko ang mukha ng babaing yun habang ngumingiti sya sa akin.

Fuck. What is this?

Just because she turned back into my old sweet Yuseon...is I also turned back to zero. At ayoko nun. Puta ayoko nun.