The Tears of My Daisy / A Cowan Fanfic

Chapter 12 - razor love

Rowan's POV

Corey was passed out in my bed, and I couldn't go to sleep. Standing in my bathroom, looking in the mirror. I've changed so munch, I barely notice myself. I dig through the draws and find my razor blades. I just need a few minutes of pain to forget everything.

One line, two lines, three lines, it kept on going. Speeding up creating so many cuts on my arms. I was viciously at it, by now I'm sobbing. I didn't even know I was crying in the first place. I hear one knock, then two knocks. It's Corey, I can't let him see me like this.

"Rowan open up, please"

"In a minute Corey"

Going back to my cabinet I find bandages and I wrap my arm up and pull my sleeve back down. I look back in the mirror. My face is all red and my eyes are so puffy. I run water all over my face until the redness is gone. Opening the door I see Corey standing there, giving me a face that screams "I'm not stupid".

"You did not just do what I think you did?" Corey said in a whisper yell.

I only look down at my feet, ignoring his question, I feel so bad now.

"Rowan let me see your arms."

Once again, I look down at my feet, it's as if I'm amused by the floor.

"I'm not playing games Rowan."

He grabs my arms so tightly, I screech, the pain was overwhelming. I start crying again. I always cry, why am I always crying? He pulls up both of my sleeves and unwraps the bandages that's on one of my arms.

"Fuck."

That's all he says, looking down at my swollen arm. Now he's crying, I wish I kept it all a secret. I wish I didn't tell him about my self harm that night. Now he's looking at me, with so much sadness and anger. Was he angry at me?

"Corey..." I've been cut off once again by his lips.

I pull away and look into his eyes, his beautiful eyes.

" Stay here, with me, don't risk your life doing this. I need you here Rowan, please stay."

I'm overwhelmed, it's not a promise that I can keep, but can I at least try? I lean in and kiss him gently, and he kisses me back. This night is a nightmare, yet it is also a dream. I weave my hands into his hair, after a few minutes we pull away.
Panting from running out of breath. He takes my hand into his, and leads me to the bed. We both lay down facing each other, looking at each other awkwardly. But soon I cuddle into him and I finally fall right to sleep. I'm home and I'm safe.

(A/N should they be official in the next chapter? Would you guys want that?)