Jungkook Imagines

Imagine #8- Unrecognized Feelings

<Really long and depressing angsty one.>

Y/N POV:

I cry into my balled up fists, my body hurts physically but unfortunately not as much as yours did. Mentally I'm aching, aching all over yet I feel strangely numb in a sort of way. I chuckle a sad and forced laugh thinking about your laugh. And to think Jimin was once on my mind, never wanting to leave but now it only took this and he has barely crossed my mind.

I never knew.

I never knew until it was too late.

Why must I be this stupid? How could I be this blind until I couldn't do anything anymore?

Why must life be unfair? And why did it take this to happen for me to notice how unfair everything seems.

My life is slowly breaking, thinking of it repeatedly doesn't help at all, in fact... it makes it worse.

I hate myself.

죄송합니다 정국... (I'm sorry Jungkook...)

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(1 month earlier)

I rush to school, picking up my feet as fast as I could. I'm already fifteen minutes late, seonsaengnim will not be happy about this! I stop right in front of my classroom quickly, trying to compose my appearance at least the slightest. I open the door as all eyes stare on me. I bow and apologize to seonsaengnim feeling my heart pounding in my ears, slightly from the running and slightly from the stares. I take my seat besides Jungkook at the back of the classroom, feeling myself subconsciously exhale a breath in relief. I lay my head down on my crossed arms, feeling the pounding subside.

Jungkook nudges my arm on the side as I turn my head to face him. I see him in the same position looking at me with a small smile.

"Hey why'd you come late?" He questions in a hushed tone, looking over at Mr. Kwon keeping a diligent eye over all of his students as he explains the next formula.

"I forgot to turn up the volume on my phone for my alarm." I reply with a shrug, I always silence my phone when I'm in school which also affects my alarm and considering I'm the most forgetful person in the world, this doesn't surprise me.

"This is probably the third time this has happened. Do you want me to be your alarm?"

"And how would that work?"

"I'll call you at the time you'd normally wake up for school, I'll probably be awake since I'm an early bird."

"Yeah but I forget to turn up the volume on my phone, I won't be able to hear your call."

"Do you have a house phone?"

"Yeah."

"Problem solved." He smiles at me with his bunny teeth I've always found to be adorable.

Jungkook and I are close friends and have been for a while so he already has my cell phone number just not my house phone. His weird questions like Do you want me to be your alarm? is a usual, and don't bother me. I scribble it down on a piece of paper I tore out of my notebook and hand it to him. It's settled, 7 am, let's see how this works out.