TORN

Chapter Twenty One part one

THE NEXT DAY

I woke up and realized that I was wrapped around Odell's torso, tight. I thought he left and went back to his room once I finally fell asleep. Guess not.

I slowly slipped from his grip trying not to wake him up and went to the bathroom.

I just want to thank God for Odell, because who knew what August would of done of done to me if he had not came in the room when he did. All last night I cried my eyes out to Odell and he was just there for me. There for me like I always knew he would be. There for me like he always was.

But I did some thinking...

I want to be single a while. I want to be able to find myself again. Over the past two years I've lost myself to the men in my life and doing what was best for them and their career.

Nah it's my time. Furthermore my relationship with my daughter had not been as strong as it usually is. I brought her into a real fucked up love triangle and that was selfish of me. And I threw Sam on top of my boutique so I go and "live" a little. So now my only priority is my kid, my boutique and most of all finding myself again.

"Jazmine? Jazz? Where you at?" I heard Odell suddenly say. I could hear the panic in his voice. He confessed to me last-night how hurt he was that another man hurt me. I have always loved Odell. I think this past year of us going through whatever we were going through was needed because we had been all we knew for six long years. Sometimes you gotta let the one you love go to realize that they were all you needed all along. I love this man I truly do, but I need him to know and understand that I need to get my shit together before I can just commit myself fully to him again.

I turned off the bathroom light and walked back towards the bed. "I'm right here" I said smiling some climbing back in bed cuddling against his warm body. He kissed my forehead and rubbed my back. "Don't scare me like that" He said hugging me tightly before getting back comfortable. I smiled at him being so protective and slowly drifted off back to sleep. He ain't have shit to do today and neither did I so we chilling all day.

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I finally decided to get up and get in the shower but I guess Odell beat me to it. It's cool, Ima hop in with his ass. Haha.

I opened the bathroom door and the steam hit me as well as Odell's terrible singing notes.

"So I can make believe I have everything, but I can't pretend that I don't see
that without you girl my life is incomplete
without you girl my life is incomplete"

I giggled from him really trying hard to carry the notes out and he stopped and peeked his head from around the shower curtain. "You being a peeping Tom?" He asked smirking. "It ain't shit I haven't seen before. But hurry up. I want to shower so we can go back to see baby Jess" I said smiling.

"Just get in girl" He said in a homosexual voice. I laughed hard and shook my head as he pulled the curtain back in its place. I took off my clothes and inhaled deeply as I put my hair in a bun and stepped into the shower with him. His tall frame stood tall over mine dripping wet. His curls had shrunk some and he looked so adorable staring at me. I haven't been this intimate with him in a year and a half and boyyyyy was it hard to keep my hands off him. I bit my lip as my eyes traveled from his body to his Johnson that was just chilling.

"Eyes up here tiger" He said laughing. I laughed and looked back up at him. But then that's when I noticed his laughed faded as he examined by body. He gentle touched my bruised shoulders and arms. I tried not to wince at the pain but I couldn't help it.

"I'm so sorry Jazmine" He said in a low tone. I removed his hand and looked up at him and he had tears in his eyes. I smiled softly and wiped his tears. "It's okay Odell. Don't apologize to me. This was my fault. I allowed it to continue. Don't you apologize for my actions. Don't" I said exhaling deeply watching him carefully as he moved hair from in-front of my face before leaning down to kiss my forehead.

You know a nigga love you if he kiss ya forehead. No doubt in my mind that Odell was serious. He's never letting me know and I truly believe him.

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Where's my tissue. Another emotional chapter. Chile. I couldn't sleep so I busted out a chapter. That's how much I love y'all lol.

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- Lou