Selena's POV
Things have been gotten better. Since we got home from the hospital time has run fast. a month since our little boy died and im still not over it i think i never will actually. Theres always gonna be hole inside of me where my son was supposed to be.
"you ok babe?" Justin asks once he sees me playing with my food. I just let out a plane sigh not really hungry for anything. I dont know if its the cheating or if its cuz our son died but lately i have been getting depressed.
"yeah just not really hungry" i shrugged as he nods not even noticing how many times i have put a fake smile on these couple of days. I just feel like screaming 'help me' at him but nothing comes out.
"im just gonna go to bed now im kinda tired anyways" i lied seeing him let out a sigh and nod.
"ill be up in a minute babe" he says smiling and in return i smile back pecking his lips before going up stairs but instead of going to our bedroom i walk in the bathroom locking the doors as i slide down the wall crying hoping Justin wouldnt hear me.
"stupid" "slut" "worthless piece of shit" "god its your fault your son died, its your fault Justin cheated" "he cheated cuz he doesnt love you no one does" "just die already than everything is over" "Fat piece of shit thats what you are" "you dont deserve Justin nor Angela or even food you dont deserve anything but blood streaming down your arm"
All these thoughts keep floading in my head and i feel like i am gonna burst any minute and scream or just explode.
I slowly stand up whiping the tears away as i noticed Justin's razor he uses to shave his beard or whatever. Should I?
Justin's POV
Every god damn minute im worried about her. She doesnt even bother smiling a real smile, she thinks i dont notice but im not stupid i know when she smiles fake and when she smiles real. I dont know whats going on with her but im sure as hell not gonna leave her alone til i find out what it is.
"god this is messed up" i talk to myself as i put the dishes in the sink than head up to the bedroom seeing no Selena but i figured shes in the bathroom to get ready for bed so i just lay down in the bed after undressingn and wait foe her to show but end up falling into a deep sleep.
