Did You Miss Me?

Marry Carter Kill Grapes F***Adam

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**Six Months Ago** (the last flash back was two years ago)

LILLY'S P.O.V.

I walk up to the bus stop, slipping in my ear buds. I didn't have an ipod or anything, but I liked having the earbuds. It kept strangers from starting a conversation with me.

I lean against the bus stop sign. A woman is also waiting, and I start to hum to the non-exsistent song.

My humming comes a stop when I see a familiar person sitting on a bench, in the park across the street.

I start making my way to the bench.

"Ryan?"

His eyes are red, and he looks up at me. I let my eyes wander to his worn out clothes and the joint between his fingers.

"Hey, Cheeks." He says.

"Is this where you've been hiding out lately?" I say gesturing to the park.

"Nah. I been around."

I shake my head.

"What are you doing?"

"What does it look I'm doing."

"It looks like you're getting high in a park for children."

"There's no kids around."

"That's not the point."

I sit down at on the bench, noticing my bus driving up. I sigh knowing I'm not getting on it.

"I'm guessing your depressed about Raven."

He takes a puff from his joint not saying anything.

"You need to get over her Ryan. It's been a whole month since she cheated on you."

His eyes get red, and watery. "I can't get over her." He says through clenched teeth. "I want her back so bad."

"Then just forgive her. Everyone makes mistakes." Placing my hand on his shoulder, trying to comfort him.

"I did! I went to her. I told her I still want to be with her, but she had another guy with her, and...and she told me that she didn't want to be with me anymore."

His eyes were filled with tears. "I begged her Lilly. She doesn't want me."

"Hey it's gonna be okay."

"NO!" He shrugs my hand off his shoulder. "You don't understand. I love her so much, and I don't know if she's ever even cared for me."

He takes another puff.

More because I don't know what to say, I put my arm around him, laying my head on his shoulder.

"I wanna forget her." He says.

"I wish I could help you Ryan."

I tilt my head to look at him, his face much close than I thought it was. "Help me forget." He whispers.

Then he quickly leans down to kiss me.

Immediately,  I freeze in shock. It's been like over a year since we've kissed. His free hand slides its way between my thighs.Thats when I snap out of it, and  push him away hard.

"What the hell! Not this." I say gesturing between us two. "It's not gonna fix anything. Getting high isn't gonna fix anything either."

He jumps up off the bench, looking down at me. "Oh yeah? What the fuck do you know, huh? You don't know shit! Especially about love. Nobody loves you. Your own fucking mother doesn't' t love you!"