One of the Bullied | ✔

Chapter 28 - Words Don't Come So Easily

My wrist is sprained, my ankle is severely bruised and my head is exhausted from going around in circles, trying to process what happened. I still can't believe it.

I don't even know why I did it.

I don't like Luke. I hate Luke.

I don't think Luke is hot. I think Luke is an asshole.

If I had to pick someone for looks, I'd pick Carter or Seth.

If I had to pick one of them for personality, I'd pick up a gun and shoot myself in the head instead.

But normal Luke would have pulled away immediately and beaten me fucking black and blue. Then, he would have told the whole school how I have a crush on him and how he finds me so pathetic.

He hasn't done any of these things.

The school knows, and everyone is waiting for comment from either me or Luke, but two days on he hasn't said a word about it, and I obviously haven't either. I got to miss Tuesday, but Jean informed me that although people were talking about the kiss, Luke hadn't said anything nasty yet.

Rita Tory ~ 18:09

Zoe? I'm sorry about earlier...

That was the text I received from Rita at the end of Monday. Stupid and pointless, but it only proves my point. If this person is sorry, it's because they did something bad enough to feel sorry about.

Who did something to be sorry about? Luke.

I didn't reply to Rita, as I didn't know what to answer, but they haven't written again and I kind of miss them. Jean went to school on Tuesday and apparently got locked in a closet with Caitlyn.

He stayed home on Wednesday, claiming he felt "sick", and we just talked and tried to make the most of what is left of our time together. It's a shame that he's leaving so soon.

It's been so nice having a friend... Now there's only one week left. One week of happiness. Then it's back to usual.

Zoe Meyer ~ 23:09

Hi?

Rita Tory ~ 23:09

Hey, Zoe. Are you okay?

Their response is so rapid it's almost scary.

Zoe Meyer ~ 23:09

Are you Luke?

This time I'm forced to wait. There's no answer for six whole minutes, during which I stare at my phone, hoping for an answer. The fact that Rita doesn't reply only confirms my theories: it has to be Luke.

I'd always had a small suspicion it was Luke. I mean, if someone has anything to apologise to, it's him.

Maybe he's developed a crush on me.

Am I being too indulgent thinking this? Why the hell would Luke like me? I'm not overly pretty and he's hated me since the day he first saw me.

Rita Tory ~ 23:12

Does it really matter who I am?