Words From a Broken Soul

You Never Cared.

(A/N): This happened recently.  To the man whom this is about: I doubt you're reading this, but if you are GO FUCK YOURSELF. *but from what you've told me, you already do.*)

It's funny how the heart works;

Fluttering at certain people,

saying who it likes and doesn't.

You were one of those people to me,

But I never expected this catastrophe.

When I saw you glancing up at me in the

Student café that day, I wish I had known that you

Only saw a body, imagining how I would look

naked and tangled in your bedsheets.

When we went on that first date

you had me under your spell;

blinded me with your charm and good looks

to get me to say yes to anything.

Those days we went to the mall for lunch,

You asked me awful and uncomfortable questions

And got annoyed when I didn't want to answer,

then timidly answered anyways out of fear.

It's pathetic now, realizing that I was too infatuated

With you to see that you never cared,

only wanted me in your bed.

I wish I had known from that start

How creepy and perverted you really are.

You never wanted my lips on yours,

Only your genitals between mine.

You never cared about me one bit.

You never wanted a commitment,

Just a series of one-night stands.

You said you wouldn't force me to do

Anything I didn't want to do,

Knowing I was too shy and scared to hurt you

So you took advantage of the fact that I was so desperate

That I wouldn't say no to anything.

You never cared about me,

Only about getting my virginity.

Several days of panic attacks, anxiety, self-blame and sobbing

Brought me to the realization that I almost gave you my v-card

Just to possibly get you to like me.

It took all that to make me see that;

You. Never. Cared.