discontinued // my winged warrior // phan

☾Seventeen☽

~Pretending~

Phil

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I was confused.

That was becoming the only constant in my life.

Had I done something wrong? Was Dan mad at me? Was he okay?

Was there something wrong in Dan's brain too?

I fell asleep in the lighthouse.

I think I cried a lot first.

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I didn't know what was going to happen.

I hoped with everything in me that Dan wouldn't leave again.

I didn't want to be alone anymore.

When I made it home, I didn't really talk to my mom.

She might've been talking to me, though. I don't know, I was busy crying.

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I liked my room. It was quiet.

I could my hear my mom talking on the phone downstairs.

"He won't leave the house. He's heartbroken over someone."

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I liked sleeping too. But the doorbell woke me up.

My mom was talking to someone again, but this time it wasn't on the phone.

"I really don't think you should come in," she said to someone, I couldn't hear who.

"He's in a big enough mess without you. I'm sorry."

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The dark was always scary. It was even more scary when Dan was away.

I didn't like my room when it was dark.

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Tap. Tap. Tap.

It was someone at my window.

It was Dan.

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"Hey," he said as I unlatched the window for him.

"Sorry I had to break in like this, but your mom wouldn't let you see me."

"S'okay," I mumbled.

"Phil. I need to talk to you. Please don't say anything till I'm done, okay?"

I nodded my head in agreement. I wanted to hug him.

"I know I've fucked up. I know it's weird between us."

I nodded my head again.

"But just for me, just for a day, let's pretend that it's alright."