Song for the chapter: Ocean Eyes by Billie Eilish
Louis' POV
We walk to inside of our cabin, with our clothes in our hands. I open my suitcase and get myself fresh clothes.
"I'll go to change in the bathroom." I tell Harry, and take my clothes with me, walking to the bathroom. I breathe in and out shaky breaths, scared of what he has to say to me.
After we both have changed into our clothes, we both sit on my bed. Harry takes my hand, giving it a light squeeze. I squeeze his hand back.
"Louis." Harry says after a moment of silence. "Yes?" I answer, and he lets out a breath.
"I have to tell you something." he says after a couple of seconds. I can feel how sweaty his hands are, he is nervous. "I know we have been friends only for few weeks, but it doesn't change the way I feel. I can't keep this inside of myself, it's suffocating me." he continues and I can feel my stomach drop.
"I like you. More as a friend. I know it's wrong, and I didn't meant to fall in love with you and ruin this, but I couldn't help it. Louis, I really like you. You are such a wonderful person and I care about you very much, and I hope even though you don't feel the same way you won't leave me." he says and I can hear from his voice that he is holding back tears.
"Oh Harry.." I say and wrap my arms around him. He melts in my embrace and lets out little sob. "It's okay love." I say and he presses his face in the crook of my neck. "But- I- I don't want to ruin t-this.." he says between sobs and I rub his back. "Harry, please look at me." I say and hold his face in my hands, brushing my thumbs across his cheeks softly.
"You didn't ruin this." I say smiling.
"What-" he asks, confused and I shush him.
"I like you too." I tell him. He is quiet for a moment and then he lets out a sound which sounds like he is choking on something. "You- you like me?" he whispers.
"Yes, I do." I say giggling. "You like me.." he says like he can't believe it. "You like me!" he whisper-shouts and hugs me so tight I can barely breathe. "Yes I do, Harry." I say and I can feel tears in my eyes, I am so happy to say that to him. If my heart could explode from happiness, it would explode right now. Tears in my eyes, butterflies in my stomach and love in my heart I hold onto Harry as tight as I can.
"I can't believe it." Harry says when he pulls back. "I- I didn't even know you were gay let alone this, but- god, I'm so happy." he says and I can hear the smile in his voice.
"I am too." I say and he wipes the tear that has fallen to my cheek.
"So, will you give me a chance? A chance of being your boyfriend?" he asks and I nod. "Of course." I say and he hugs me again. Suddenly I hear someone opening the door to my room, and I pull back from the hug.
"Lou? Is everything alright?" I hear my mom's voice.
"Yeah, everything is fine." I answer, furrowing my eyebrows.
"Oh, I just hear someone shouting and I thought- oh well, good night then." she says.
"Sorry for waking you up, Johannah." Harry says and my mom says it's fine.
"Good night kids." my mom says and closes the door. Harry takes my hand, and plays with my fingers. After a moment of silence I speak up.
"Harry?" I whisper. "Yeah?" he asks. "Can I touch your face? Um, I mean, we've been friends for ages and I still don't know what you look like-" I tell him and he cuts me off. "Of course." he says with a warm voice. I smile and he grabs my hands, leading them to his face. Just as my hands finds his face, he lets go of them. First thing I notice that he has a very soft, spotless skin. I feel the warmth of his skin under the tips of my fingers, as I softly drag my hands across his cheeks. Harry owns high cheekbones and a very sharp jawline, and I feel them too. I hold my breath as my fingers find his eyebrows, and I brush my fingers over them. Then my pointer fingers and middle fingers touch his eyelids, his eyes are closed. The pads of my thumbs softly feel his nose, and then his lips. "Smile for me." I say and he does it. I find little dimples in his cheeks, and I hold my fingers on top of them, just savoring the moment.
"They are like little craters. I like your dimples." I say, smiling.
"Yeah." he says, giggling. "Got them for my birthday." he says, grinning. I drop my hands, smiling at him.
"I want to play you a song." he says after a short moment of peaceful silence.
"What's the name of the song?" I ask and turn around so that I could lay in his lap, with my head in his chest. He opens his phone and gives the other earphone to me, and places the phone beside us on the bed.
"Ocean eyes." he answers. "It made me think of you." he continues and plays the song.
"I've been watching you for some time,
can't stop staring at those ocean eyes.
Burning cities and napalm skies,
fifteen flares inside those ocean eyes,
your ocean eyes.
No fair,
you really know how to make me cry
when you give me those ocean eyes.
I'm scared,
I've never fallen from quite this high
falling into your ocean eyes,
those ocean eyes.
I've been walking through
a world gone blind,
Can't stop thinking of your diamond mind.
Careful creature,
Made friends with time,
he left her lonely with a diamond mind,
and those ocean eyes.
No fair,
you really know how to make me cry
When you gimme those ocean eyes.
I'm scared,
I've never fallen from quite this high
falling into your ocean eyes,
those ocean eye.
No fair,
you really know how to make me cry,
When you gimme those ocean eyes .
I'm scared,
I've never fallen from quite this high
falling into your ocean eyes,
those ocean eyes."
Harry's pov
I run my hand through Louis' hair as the song ends. I can feel wetness in my shirt and I turn to look at Louis. He is crying. I pull my earphone out of my ear, and he does too.
"Louis, baby, what's wrong?" I ask and tilt his chin to look at me. "Why are you crying?" I ask and he sniffles. "Harry.. the song.. It- it was just so beautiful. I love that it made me think of you." he sniffles.
I just smile and wipe his tears away. "You're beautiful too." I say and look at his eyes. Those pale blue eyes that hold so much pain and depth, are the eyes that I love. Those endless eyes make me feel safe, they make me feel like home. I could stare at his eyes for eternity.
"And your eyes are beautiful. Your ocean eyes." I whisper and he closes his eyes. I place a delicate kiss to his eyelids, making him blush. "You're a sap." he whispers back with a small smile.
"And you love it." I answer and he giggles. "Yeah I do."
Later the same night, Louis is asleep safe in my arms. I run my hand through his soft hair, thinking about how much I care- no, I think I love him. I do love him. I've fallen for him, and I would give up everything for him. I've fallen in love with his soft but raspy voice, his soft hands trailing across my skin. I've fallen in love the way he throws his head back when he laughs, I've fallen in love with the way he always reaches for my hand when we walk down the street. I've fallen in love with everything about him, especially his eyes. His beautiful, endless eyes. I've fallen for his eyes, but they don't know me yet.
I'M CRYING
okay honestly writing this made me cry I'm not even kidding.
listen to the song in the media, it's such a beautiful song and it fits the story perfectly.
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