A Work In Progress Part Two

To Love Without Reason

Kevin looks at Double D, his emerald green eyes full of worry. Double D is sitting there next to Kevin with a blank, emotionless expression on his face and he hasn't spoken a word in over ten minutes. Kevin doesn't know what to do, or think, about it. He tries gently shaking Double D but it does nothing. Then, seemly out of nowhere, Kevin feels an overwhelming pain in his entire torso. He tries his hardest not to scream. Kevin grabs at his chest and pushes hard against it trying to ease up some of the pain. That does very little to ease it. He can't hold back the scream much longer when it suddenly stops. Kevin is left panting from the pain and grasping at his heart when Double D finally says something.
"K-Kevin. I can not do it. The flashbacks are coming faster and more often." Double D hangs his head and starts to cry.
"Shhh... It's OK baby. I'm here. Let it out. Shhh... It's OK." Kevin pulls Double D onto his lap and cradles him close to his chest. He lovingly rubs Double D's back and places soft sweet kisses on his forehead and the top of his head.
After about three minutes Double D is calm enough to talk. He looks up at Kevin and wipes away the few stray tears from Kevin's cheeks. Double D smiles slightly and places his palm on Kevin's cheek. Kevin presses his cheek into Double D's hand and sighs softly.
"I'm sorry I couldn't protect you Double D. I'm so sorry I didn't know how to comfort you and be there for you when you needed me the most. I'm sorry I wasn't the person you needed me to be." Double D's eyes fill with unshed tears. He wipes his eyes and looks Kevin in his pure emerald green eyes. Double D takes a shaky breath before he speaks.
"You can not blame yourself Kevin Barr. Neither of us were emotionally capable to deal with what happened. You did the best you could at the time and I see that now. I was embarrassed by what happened and embarrassed that I could not prevent it from happening. I do not blame you Kevin. I never really did. I blamed myself, R.B, my mother and father but never you. You saved me. If it wasn't for you I do not believe that I would be here. I thank you Kevin. Now rest my angel. You have a big day tomorrow." Double D gives Kevin a quick kiss on his forehead and heads towards the door, walking out the room and closing the door behind him. He had many things to get together before they released Kevin tomorrow afternoon and he planned on having it mostly completed tonight.