Supernatural Imagines

Jensen Ackles X Reader

You Have A Breakdown Before Filming And Jensen Helps You
Title- I Can't Take This Anymore
Warnings- self harm, stress, mental illness

You sat in the corner of your trailer, tears streaming down your face. Your eyes were blood shot and your cheeks were flushed. You held a silver blade against your pale skin and your lips trembled as you spoke to yourself.
Fat.
Ugly.
Unlovable.
Worthless.
Useless.
Disgusting.
Mistake.
Bitch.
Slut.
Whore.
You could hear people calling for you from outside, thank god they hadn't checked the trailer yet. You dragged the razor over your bare thigh, smiling as the blood trailed.
Yes, I deserve this, you though.
However, you weren't satisfied, and without thinking, you moved onto slicing your wrists. Blood bubbled up, slipping down your arm and dripping onto the floor.
"Y/N, you in there?" Robert called from outside.
You froze, hardly breathing.
"Y/N, are you okay?"
Ignore him.
He'll go away.
Ignore him.
He'll go awa...
The door swung open.
"Jesus Y/N, everyone's look..."
The sight of you sitting bloody and pale on the floor of your trailer, a razor still pressed to your skin.
"Y/N, put that down" Robert coaxed.
You shook your head.
"Jensen! I need some help" Robert shouted.
Within moments Jensen Ackles was kneeling by your side, prying the razor from your hand, cutting his finger in the process.
"I'm sorry Jensen" you whispered.
"For what, Y/N?"
"I cut you."
"No, no, you didn't. I did that, my fault, okay?" Jensen stammered "Do you wanna talk to me? About why?"
You shook your head.
"Were you planning anything, Y/N?"
Your breath caught in your through.
Were you. You had always wanted... that, but you'd never actually planned anything.
You shook your head again.
"Were you triggered? Did someone say something?"
"I can't take this anymore" you mumbled.
"What's this, Y/N?"
"Everything."
"Robert, go get the first aid kit. Y/N, do you want to go to hospital?"
"No" you mumbled, another tear escaping you eye.
"What do you want then?"
"To stay here. With you. Here is good. Here is perfect."