Today was my first day on earth since I died and I don't know what to feel, I'm happy, I truly am. But I'm not allowed to talk to my family nor my friends and that's kinda sad.
I'm back in my home city, I'll be guarding a girl in a school in a place near my home -used to be my home, before I died-. School starts tomorrow and so does my first mission. I'm not gonna fail. Okay. Help her choose the right path. Don't make her get involved with Devils and stupid creators. Don't get involved with them either. And don't stop the death gods. That's it? Oh right. Don't fall inlove with a human and absolutely not a devil or a fallen angel.
And our plans for today:
- make it comfortable in our new home, yes Lionel managed to get us a place to live in.
- go grocery shopping. I missed grocery shopping, I never thought I would actually miss it but it makes me feel more human, not that I don't like being an angel but I'm not quite used to it yet
- And last but not least: just walk around the city.
"let's go, I wanna see our new home" Lionel said and dragged me with him "I want to see it so so bad, and in order to do that we have to go grocery shopping"
"Okay okay, I'm coming" I walked beside him. I knew this street and could manage to find my previous home even if I closed my eyes. I've walked around this street for over 10 years. I knew the people here. The ones you can trust and the ones you shouldn't trust.
"Lionel?" I said and my voice cracked a bit
"What is it?" He answered and looked me in the eyes "is something bothering you?"
"It's just that.. what if someone I knew happened to see me? I lived here since I was born and I know almost everyone on this street, and I'm supposed to be dead but what if someone saw me?"
"They won't see as you as you. Well they'll see you. But they're not seeing you, you look different in their eyes, there's no way they'll recognize you" he answered "don't worry" he fell silent for a moment and continued "I know that it's hard in the beginning, I wanted to meet my parents so bad at the beginning. Cuz' I knew that they felt like shit after losing me. It must have been hard on them to lose both their children"
"Did you have a sibling?" I asked
"Yea, an older sister. But she passed away years ago"
"I- I'm sorry for that. But I also lost a sibling, I had a twin brother, but he got killed in a fight 3 years ago"
We talked about our siblings and as we were walking to a super market to get some food and other necessary things.
"But twins are fun, they tend to be really close, don't you think?" Lionel said
"It's supposed to be like that I guess, but I wasn't really that close with my brother. I even think that he hated me for always scolding him"
"My sister used to scold me all the time, but I never hated her"
"Yea but he was bad. Really really bad. He got into fights. He even killed people. Accidentally he always said, but I think it all were on purpose."
"You think?"
"Yea, omg can I buy these?" I asked Lionel and showed him a box filled with chocolate "you don't have this in heaven. Pleaaaase?"
"Yea sure, we'll buy it" he said
We continued our shopping, we bought al lot of food like hamburger steak, meatballs, fries, vegetables - even though I'm not a vegetable lover -, candy and lets not forget coca cola and we bought so much more, and we also bought stuff that's necessary in a household like shampoo, soap and all that stuff you have in home.
"okay, have we forgotten something?" Lionel asked "we bought this, this, this, this" he said as he showed me all the stuff in our cart.
"toilet paper" I said.
"oooooh that's right, could you go and get and it? i'll go and get some ice cream. I need some of that, we don't have ice cream in heaven either"
"okay"
I looked around the place to find the toilet paper, not that I don't recognize the place and can't find my way in this place, no. I want to observe everything here, I miss this place, I used to walk around here with my friends and buy some candy or one cream or just buy some butter but this place reminded me of home. As I were thinking i walked past the shelf with all the flakes and noticed the frosted flakes. My brother used to love them. He actually loved everything that was sweet.
Before I knew it I started thinking about my past.
"I'm going to buy some of those frosted flakes"
"Ugh.. not those again"
"No one's forcing you to eat them my dear big brother" he said sarcastic
"you're the one forcing me just because you like them"
"they're delicious you know" he said and took a box and put the box in a basket.
His chain of thought snapped as a silhouette peered past his eyes. Its familiarity struck him, "Jeffree?" He Said as his heart were beating erratically as he turned out of desperation once his gaze fell upon the being he felt his body sink into the pitch dark bottomless pit beneath him, a sigh escaping his lips as he realises he had been mistaken.
"Are you okay?" A Young boy asked
I looked at him as his green eyes met my hazel eyes. We looked at each other in silence for a couple seconds before it got awkward and I looked away.
"Uh.." I didn't understand why a guy I never met would ask me something like that. Of course I'm okay I thought as my eyebrows furrowed in confusion with my gaze fixed upon the young boy before me. It was not until I noticed the worry and sorrow which streamed from his eyes that I came to the realisation of what had happened. That drops of painful tears had started to flow from my hazel colored eyes.
"Here." He gave me a tissue and smiled. A smile that looked so pure and gave me shivers down my spine.
"Where have you been Nikolai?" Lionel walked towards me and I noticed how worried he's been "I've been searching for you all over -" he stopped talking as he noticed that I've been crying "hey, are you okay?"
"Yea.. I'll just return -" I turned around to return the tissues to the young boy but he was gone. "Eh?" Where did he go?
"What? Return what?" Lionel asked. "Let's go home already, it's late" he started to walk out of the market.
"Uh.. okay" I said and followed him shortly after.
Lionel was quite all the way home and he didn't even ask about the reason that made me cry. But it felt good. I needed some time to think about everything. I had everything but lost it as fast as I got it, that's how everything felt and I definitely need some sleep. It'll be a hard day tomorrow, my first mission and I'm already depressed. I'm supposed to be happy about this.
I went to bed without a word to Lionel and closed my eyes and slowly started to drift away to the city of dreams.
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Forbidden love
Romance(BOY X BOY) You can't stop the feeling called love. But the person you fell for is the worst yet most beautiful being you've ever seen? And you know that your love for him will get you in trouble. Nikolai is a young boy who was forced into a new li...
