Forbidden love

Guilty pleasure

Showering in cold water while the anger boils inside of me was the best thing to do. Dominic sometimes really make me want to shove a fork up his ass and just watch him suffer as I add more forks up his small ass.

"what's wrong with him uuuuuurghhh," I said louder than I wanted, wishing that Dominic wouldn't hear. Why date an angel and on top that why my brother? That's just disgusting and fucking forbidden if he's that suicidal he could just tell me and I would happily bury him in hell's flames.

I got out of the shower and got dressed. A dark blue hoodie and a pair of black jeans. I looked in the mirror, my brown hair has grown a bit but I don't intend to cut it anytime near, my brown eyes resembled Nikolai's a lot but there was this little something in them that made them look alike. We're twins but we're not really alike. I felt some weird feeling inside of me as a tear fell down.

"What's wrong with me." I whispered to myself as I splashed water on my face "What is this feeling."

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I walked out of the bathroom while wiping my hair that reached down to my shoulders now. "I'm not going to school," I said and hung the towel on a chair.

"What, why?" He looked at me annoyed. He should be grateful that I'm leaving him, he doesn't like me anyways and I'm just a burden for him.

"Don't feel like it, besides, I'm already dead. I don't really need grades and all that bullshit school's giving us." I grabbed my jacket and put it on. I always avoid people when everything inside of me just falls apart. I remember that Nikolai always got mad whenever I did that but now he's not here. "And don't bring anyone here while I'm gone. You know what I mean," I said before closing the door behind me. I knew that he wouldn't listen and that he certainly will kidnap Nikolai or something similar. Nikolai's naive after all and Dominic dumber.

My stomach made weird noises and I just covered it as if to tell it to shut up as I walk towards the library. I didn't have any breakfast - as usual, but I still get hungry and should learn to eat breakfast. I guess some bad habits isn't easy to get rid of.

I got to the library and went looking for books to spend my day reading. I could start with a book series. I don't really have anything to do anyway. I choose a book series and went to buy something to eat from the cafeteria and ate while reading.

I looked at the clock and apparently, I've spent five hours reading and Dominic would finish in two hours and I'm sure he will try to kidnap that naive brother I have and make life harder for me. "You're not alive, your life can't become worse," I said to myself as I texted Lionel. I had to meet him after school and talk to him about my stupid and his dumber friend.

"I still had two hours to go," I thought as I picked the last book of the book series.

Someone tapped me on the head and I looked up and saw Lionel.

"Sup," He said.

"Reading," I answered and put away the book "I gotta talk to you about the motherfucker Dominic and your stupid angel friend. They're into each other you know."

"Mhm, I figured out that much, he told me that Dominic confessed to him earlier today," He said and sat on the chair in front of me.

"If both our lords find out we're all dead meat. We have to do our best to make them not see each other," I explained. "Or we could do it the hard way and leave them be and save ourselves."

"I can't just let him be, he's my friend," Lionel looked sad but this wasn't going to trick me and make me warmhearted uh-uh.

"It's up to you, but if they get caught and I somehow gets dragged in that shit I'll take you with me to hell and burn you with my own hands. I'll make sure that I survive myself and will watch you suffer down there Lionel." I noticed how scared Lionel got and I loved that look in his eyes. Fear me more. More. More.

He didn't say anything and just looked down at his hands in fear as I decided to leave the library and walk somewhere else. Not home. Not yet. I have to do some damage, I have to entertain my inner demons and fuck around a bit.

It was only 6 o'clock but it was already dark. The perfect weather. I roamed the place and looked for someone fun enough to destroy as I saw two guys fighting, one of them holding a knife and the other one laying on the ground terrified. "Perfect," I whispered to myself as I walked towards them. They won't see me, not all humans could see demons unless we wanted to be seen. I walked up to the guy holding the knife and whispered "Kill him." in his ear as he shoved the knife into the other guy's chest. His blood spurted in every direction and I grinned at the horrifying scene. I missed killing so bad and this didn't quite make it, I want to hurt someone, make them suffer. I want to torture someone. Watch them as their last breath escaped their mouth. I wanted to see it all.