Forbidden love

Mistakes

"But why can't I?" I was annoyed at Jeff, he sometimes really made me feel like strangling him.

"Because you obviously can't date an angel you stupid piece of shit," He answered as annoyed as me.

"I was once an angel you know."

"WAS yes. And I once was human, does it look like I can go around fucking humans? No, exactly."

"You do fuck them."

"With their mind yes, not psychically."

"But I just wanna talk to him, man." I so wanted to slap him but if I did I might be dragged back to hell. A fallen angel beating the shit outta a demon isn't really something Lucifer would be proud of.

"Your definition of 'Talking' is basically your dick in his ass. Your dick talks instead of you." Jeff said to me and looked me in the eyes. "And, I don't want my brother fucking something filthy like you. You're not one of us, nor one of them. You're on your own and you choose to," was what he said to me before going to the bathroom to take a shower before school. That's how our beautiful mornings begin. Yelling, complaining, yelling, fighting, yelling, yelling, feeling the urge to kill each other and lastly, yelling again. We never really agree on anything. It might be cuz of me not being an angel nor a demon. I was on my own, as he said. I am on my own. Because of love. I fell because of my stupid ass falling in love with a human. They sent me to hell because of love.

They say people learn from their mistakes, I don't. Here I am, losing everything, losing my worth and blessing to go and make everything much worse. To get my punishment and Lucifer knows what they will do to me if I fuck it up again.

Jeff walked out of the bathroom dressed in a dark blue hoodie and a pair of black jeans while wiping his fairly long hair even though he always tells me that it's short. It touches his shoulders and that's long.

"I'm not going to school," He said and hung the towel on a chair.

"What, why?" I looked at him annoyed.

"Don't feel like it, besides, I'm already dead. I don't really need grades and all that bullshit school's giving us." He grabbed his jacket and put it on. "And don't bring anyone here while I'm gone. You know what I mean," He said before closing the door behind him.

He sure has a careless life.

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The school wasn't all that bad without Jeff. He didn't talk much, to begin with, and when he opened that filthy mouth of his he either saw something that he complained about or to just simply provoke me with his mean comments.

I tried to focus on the lessons but it wasn't the easiest thing to do while anxiously thinking about the one I loved. The wrong person for the second time. I should learn. I really should.

This day felt like years and I don't know if the reason was me missing Nikolai or just simply that I'm feeling alone without that psycho demon I'm friends with not to mention that my stupid ass forgot to bring the lunch box Jeff made for both of us before showering and spontaneously decided to ditch school. He used to stay away from other demons in hell from time to time and he never really said the reason why. Not that it bothered me, I'm more bothered when he's with me.

I spent the lunch break in class working on assignments we were given. I could've been to the school restaurant to find Nikolai but I didn't. Now I'll just have to find him before he leaves school because this is one hell of an opportunity to make him come with me home. Jeff might kill me if he finds out and that's why I'll make sure to make it as clean as possible. I'll try to find him. No, I have to find him.

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I hurried to the lockers as soon as I finished for the day hoping that Nikolai would be there. To my surprise he was. I'll ask him, no I'll make him come with me. I have to talk to him and Lionel's not with him, I can do it.

Hey!" He didn't turn around. "Nikolai"

He turned around and saw me when I said his name. Lord Satan, he's so beautiful.

"Are you free today?" I asked him.

"Today? No, I have to study physics."

"I could help you, are you working with the friction force?"

He just answered with a simple nod.

"Okay, good. We could study in my place."

"Why?"

"I have to talk to you," I said as I grabbed him by the wrist and dragged him with me. I was surprised by the fact that he didn't protest against it and silently followed me.