Forbidden love

Scars - day 2

I opened my eyes and was really prepared to be met by a cold room and a pair of cold eyes but I soon realized that I wasn't at home. I was actually in a bed with Nikolai and my arms were wrapped around him. I looked around the room to see the empty bunk bed. No one was actually in the room beside us, I guess they left us to eat breakfast.

I looked at Nikolai's sleeping face. He looked so cute, he really looks like an angel with that pale and smooth skin and his small body in my arms gave me small heart attacks. I caressed his cheek while he was still asleep and decided that I should tell him the truth some day real soon even though I'm scared. I'm really scared, I don't want to know his reaction and I don't want him to freak out but that's not the biggest problem. I might destroy his after-life thanks to the truth, some truths hurts sometimes and in this case, it does.

"Hm?" Nikolai woke up and rubbed his eyes.

"Oh, sorry did I wake you up?"

"No, it's -"

I kissed him. Nothing too much at first but my hands found their way under his shirt and caressed his skin. It was soft and I felt his hands struggling to push me away. But I couldn't stop, I kissed him roughly as my hand moved up to his chest and a moan slips out of his lips between the kisses as I pushed him down onto the bed. He looked terrified but I couldn't stop. 

I couldn't resist him and my hand moved down to his pajamas pants and pulled them down. He tried to push me away yet again.

"N-no! Why?..." Nikolai sounded afraid, and I'm not blaming him. I am dangerously hot. 

"shut up." 

"Dominic! What the actual fuck!" Jeff entered the room and grabbed my arm as he pulled me away from Nikolai 

"I was trying to eat breakfast."

"The breakfast is in the kitchen you fucking rapist!" 

"Okay, okay, calm your shit down." I got dressed and walked out of the room and was soon followed by Nikolai who walked in silence. 

We walked to the kitchen and ate in silence. I scared him. I did and I never talked to him about the truth, I'm such a Jerk. 

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They gave us a map and a compass and matches and they even gave us a tent and other things we'll eventually need and I didn't give them much thought. 

"I'm not gonna sleep here with all these disgusting insects." Jeff waved his hand like someone who just got attacked by a lion when it was really just small flies. 

Jeff was busy trying to get all the small insects to leave him and Lionel used his map skills to guide us and with that, I mean that we're completely lost and the only quite one is Nikolai. He just walked beside me observing our surroundings and in this case, the trees, birds, and stones. 

"Hey, will there be snakes?" Jeff asked Lionel 

"I don't know, maybe" 

"Ew.." He stopped walking. "I don't wanna do this anymore."

"Just walk, it's just a snake," I pushed him to make him walk again. 

This forest was filled with a lot of trees and you barely could see the sky but the darkness here felt nice somehow. It wasn't scary nor uncomfortable, it was just nice to be here and I know someone who enjoyed the lack of sunlight here. Jeff never liked the sun. He got a thing for dark and brutal things and his personality is twisted on top of that and Nikolai seemed to like the birdsong.