Harry Styles Imagines

94 - After her (au)

After her

*Harry's POV*

 "I don't like you, Harry."

 Her words repeat in my head, over and over again. They are like my personal curse, dark and painful. Hurting me although she already left. Every time I hear her voice in my mind I hope her words will change. I hope that, this time, she will say something different, the words that I'm craving to hear. But I never hear them. All I hear is:

 "I don't like you, Harry." 

 I could run after her but would that help me?

 Fuck, no.

 I would only have to see her angelic face again. I would have to hear her sweet voice saying the words again while she tries to suppress her tears that are threatening to roll over her rosy cheeks. I would have to see her crying and I hate seeing her cry. I want her to be happy. Happy because of me.

 Although I just decided not to run after her I do the exact opposite. My legs carry me through the windy night.  But I stop in the middle of the empty street, yelling her name as loud as I can so she knows that I am here.

 She turns around and screams: "What? Why did you come back, Harry? I told you...I told you I don't—Weren't my words clear enough for you?"

 "No. No, they weren't." I say as I walk closer to her.

 "I'm not gonna say it again. I can''t say it again, Harry."

 "Why? Because it was a lie?"

 "Because I don't want to hurt you." She replies and looks so hurt but she is not the only one who is hurting. The day I fell in love with her is the day where I was cursed. She is my everything, my light in the darkness, my guide when I'm lost. But she also is the catalyst to the fire inside of me, accelerating the time so I will burn out soon.

 "Then stop leaving me. It hurts when you leave. It hurts that you think leaving me alone with all this is...is okay," I say and stand right in front of her, "Y/N, I'm in— "

 "Don't, Harry," She begs and I take her hand in mine, play with her fingertips, "Please don't say it again."

 "Why am I not allowed to say what I feel?"

 "Because it hurts you when I don't say it back. And as I said I don't want you being hurt, hurt by me."

"It also hurts when I don't say it. It doesn't stop hurting until you decide to face the truth." I say, still convinced that she is just hiding her feelings for me. It's impossible that she feels nothing. All our late night talks, the cuddling, the few kisses we were stealing from each other. We were the perfect couple without even being a couple.

 "You think I'm lying to you?" She asks and I nod, I know she lies, "I don't love you, Harry. Accept it. You can't change it. I can't change it. We both have to live with that. I thought I could fall in love with you. The time we had was so beautiful. But I never fell for you like I thought I could. I wish I would have because you deserve so much love."

 "Why do you not want to admit it?" I say and try to ignore the fact that she told me—again—she doesn't love me.

 "Harry, I like someone else." Ouch.

 "Why not me?" I sound so needy but well, I am. Y/N shakes her head, sighing. She doesn't even look at me. Her eyes are focusing at something behind me and when I quickly turn around I see nothing but an empty street, "Why not me, Y/N? Am I not good enough for you? Were I mean? Just tell me."

 "There will be a girl who—"

 "Don't come with this shit! You think I could look at another girl now while all I can think of is you? It's fucking you, Y/N! Do you think I like being in love with you? No, I fucking hate it because I want—I just...just love you so much," I whisper my last words, my fingers touching her chin so she has to look at me. Her eyes glossy, having a silver touch because of the moon light.

 Our foreheads are pressed together and I can hear her halting breath. My lips ghost over hers, almost touching it, sensing the warmth but never really feeling it. As much as I want to kiss her it would be wrong.

 "Goodbye, Harry." Y/N whispers and takes a step back from me.

 "Answer me." I demand but she shakes her head.

 The pussy that I am I feel tears on my cheeks. She kisses my tears away which are rolling down my cheeks while I tremble. For a few seconds she just looks at the mess that I am before she turns around and leaves.

 "Answer me! No, wait, please!" I yell after her and sink down onto my knees, "Please, I love you." I say but she starts running, trying to escape my desperate calls for her love, and then, then she disappeared.

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